aiskkzz… i am in trouble again!! how come i have this kinda mood one ar… like PMS only… *fark* i feel so depressed again!!! bah~~~
i have no mood again!!
i wanna eat, but i dont know what i wanna eat… pasta? no. rice? no. noodles? no. steaks, lamb chops, thai food? YES!! but where? no one… THEN?
i wanna study, but i dont know where to start from… AFA? no. AMA? no. TL? no. CA? no. THEN?
i wanna do something, but i dont know what to do… assignments? no. clubbing? no. K? no. sleeping? no. chatting? no. THEN?
i wanna go somewhere, but i dont know where to go… city? no. footscray? no. clayton? no. KL? YES!! but i cant…
i wanna go shopping to buy something, but i dont know what to buy… clothes? no. accessories? no. shoes? no. bags? no. THEN?
i feel like doing all these things, i would love to!! i am serious!! BUT… i dont know what exactly i want…
damn it!! what’s wrong man!!
it’s just like i told my friend that… i feel like getting a bf… so that someone could calm me down, could pamper me… blablabla… but then I DONT WANT A BF!! ahahahha… sounds ridiculous right!! it’s like… yea, i NEED one to make me happy, to make me feel loved… but i just dont want it!! i dont want to commit… i am not ready to commit…
i am just another psycho fella… i think…
i think none can understand me, as i dont even know what i want, dont ask me… i will just reply you with ‘I DONT KNOW’
i think i just wanna live with myself ALL ALONE!! not talking to anyone, not doing anything, not going anywhere… so then i can be myself!! that’s me!! I DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING!! bahhhhhhhh~~~
living in a SOCIETY is saddening… i am tired of doing something that i dont feel like doing but i HAVE TO DO!! have to talk, when i dont feel like… have to smile, when i dont feel like… have to act happy, when i am not… ishhhh…
it’s MERDEKA!! and why is everyone acting so excited? are they really happy with it…? oh well, i dont feel A SINGLE THING!! it’s just another boring day that i have to live on… why is everyone screaming there for merdeka? really that interesting huh? really that happy eh? i cant feel it…
i have no feeling for ANYTHING!!!
***************
haiihzz… what an emo + psycho entry… guess none can undestand, including myself…