Emotional…

i dont know what’s wrong with me… i have no mood all the time…

and i dont know why am i here in kl… i thought it would be much better than the life in melb… but, it’s still the same… obviously it’s not the PLACE, but ME… i dont like it here i dont like it there… i dont like this i dont like that, i dont like everything… feeling extremely negative…

everything that i THOUGHT i would be happy for, is now no longer giving the same effect… it seems like… i can hardly find something to make me happy now…

i think i seriously miss zhanshen so much… =( if zhanshen is here, everything MIGHT be different… or at least, he is here to entertain me, to read my mind, to tell me what’s wrong with me… i think he is now too far to SENSE that… and also at least, he is the ONLY ONE who doesnt mind doing stupid and weird thing with me… and he seldom FFK me… he said that he would pui me means he would… haiihzzzz…

probably, i made a wrong decision AGAIN for coming back… should stay in melb to rot… at least… rotting freely in nicer weather… forever wrong one ler me… dont know when only i can make a proper brilliant genius decision of all~~~~

i am now lifeless, aimless, moodless… USELESS!!