Author: eRiCCa

ROCK is a new relationship TERM, yea it’s not a new type of relationship, it’s commonly known as FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS… But, there is a new name now, the Relationship Of a Certain Kind, ROCK, maybe it sounds like it ROCKs?

This kinda relationship is now a common thing, I guess people are just more comfortable with it, no strings attached, no pressure, most importantly, you don’t need to put in too much effort… And also, the relationship can be so flexible, you can turn into a friend, you can turn into a lover, depending on the situations… VERY COOL!!

But, it’s not easy to maintain I would say, it’s too flexible till you might not know how to balance it… Sometimes you feel like a friend, but your partner might feel like a lover, or vice versa… Or, if you are TOO LOVER, your partner might not be happy as he or she wants to be more friend than a lover, or other way round… Or, one day you want the ROCK to turn into an actual relationship because you have fallen in LOVE with your partner, that is not a ROCK, that is a violation… Or, you have few ROCKs at the same time till you are trapped in them…

Sometimes I wonder, since a human needs both friends and a lover, and they are so hard to get, why not just get ONE ROCK and done the job… So that you won’t have to worry about not balancing between friends and lover, because they are the same anyway… The scary part is, when the ROCK is broken, you will be left with NO ONE, NONE.

But then, it is the same for FRIENDS and LOVERS too, they come and go… No matter how much effort you have put in, how much love you have given, there will still be some other reasons for them to leave… Or, a very common reason, TIME, time changes people, we are different every minute… Or, no reason at all, just one sentence “The feelings have changed”…

From the view of an INVESTOR, it seems like investing in a ROCK is a HIGH RISK HIGH RETURN investment while FRIENDS and LOVERS are some GOVERNMENT BONDS, they can be stable with reasonable returns for a FIXED PERIOD OF TIME till the maturity dates… So, what type of risk taker are you? Go and have your risk portfolio done!

Afterall, being alone is a must learn theory in life, having people around you is a BONUS, if you don’t, that’s life… Because it’s YOUR LIFE, YOUR BUSINESS… Who cares…

Quote a friend of mine, Mervin…
A song named The World is a Vampire by Smashing Pumpkins, tells you that… THE WORLD SUCKS…

Although I wasn’t really happy with the trip, at least I was glad that I joined the trip, because of the people!! =) It was great fun having all these wonderful people around me… Love them to bits!! Thanks for the company, Mayvis, Dennis, WheiMeng, ChangSheng, WeeHong, David, David’s sister and WeiYu…

But, I HATE BANGKOK, I wouldn’t want to go there again!! It’s such a stressful place to go… The weather is killing, the air is so polluted, the traffic is so bad, then to bargain while shopping is super headache, further more with the communication problem, the food is not that good… FUWAH… NO THANKS!!

The worst was I had all the bad lucks during the trip… It started from…

– Didn’t get to withdraw money in the first place
– Got my Thai Baht at LCCT at a sky high rate
– Didn’t manage to call Dennis as I didn’t have his number while we were supposed to meet up at the Bangkok airport
– Paid 4 times the taxi fares to get to the hotel
– Paid 50% more for a dress
– Almost died because too hot too stuffy and couldn’t breath and felt dizzy
– Had gastric
– Had upset tummy
– Lastly, missed the flight and had to pay RM350 for one way to go home while I paid RM330 for return flights before

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH… BAD TRIP but at least some happy pictures!!

The first dinner we had…

The couple…

The VERY REAL fake couple…

The beauty sister and the beast brother…

Mayvis and I…

The chickssssssssss…

The BOSS…

Things are getting freakier and freakier… I am seriously afraid and worried… I really wish that I have some sort of super power, or GodLike power… I wish all these didn’t happen in the first place, and please stop this, please let the curse end now, this minute…

Please protect my family, don’t harm anyone of us anymore…

I was told that, we have to be independent, nobody can’t live without anybody, have to learn how to live on ourselves…

So, why do we need FAMILY and FRIENDS?

Family, maybe we are just born in the family…

But friends, if a friend is an important element in my life, I don’t see a point calling this person a FRIEND… If a friend is only to have fun with and will run away from my problems, I doubt that this person deserves being named a FRIEND…

I wonder where is my… “A Shoulder to Cry On”

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Tommy Page : A Shoulder to Cry On

Life is full of lots of up and downs
But the distance feels further
When it’s headed for the ground
And there’s nothing more painful
Then to let your feelings take
You down

It’s so hard to know
The way you feel inside
When there’s many thoughts
And feelings that you hide
But you might feel better
If you let me walk with you
By your side

Chorus:

And when you need
A shoulder to cry on
When you need
A friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won’t be alone
I’ll be there
I’ll be your shoulder to cry on
I’ll be there
I’ll be your friend to rely on
When the whole world’s gone
You won’t be alone ’cause I’ll be there

All of the times
When everything is wrong
And your feeling like
There’s no use going on
You can’t give it up
I’ll help you work it out
And carry on

Side by side
With you till the end
I’ll always be the one
A shoulder to cry on continued

To firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on

Chorus:

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world’s gone, you won’t be alone
’cause I’ll be there
I’ll be your shoulder to cry on
I’ll be there
I’ll be the one to rely one
When the whole world’s gone, you wont be alone
’cause I’ll be there
And when the whole world is gone
You’ll always have my shoulder to cry on

OK, it’s my 26th, but I didn’t really feel like it, maybe I AM AGING!! Well, still have to thank you many people who made the effort to wanting to celebrate for me, or celebrated for me, or even by just wishing me… THANK YOU!!

I had a surprise party this year, thanks to the following people… Buffet lunch at TENJI, then to Feeling Cafe at Wangsa Maju…

Yeon and Gabriel…

But I prefer this version…
Yeon: You know the thing went like this like this like this…
Gab: =___= WTF is that…

The pregnant doll Emily and husband Brad…

WaiYen aka Fun Cheong…

The photographer of the day, David aka Korean Korkor aka McPork aka EyeCandy… And my HUGE CAKE…

My surprise was…

They got me this guy to sing FOR/WITH me… The story was, I saw this guy singing at a cafe few weeks back and I liked his singing… So, Mr Gabby got him to be the special guest for the 1 hour or so…

I was… Surprised… Scared… Nervous… Blushed… Excited… Whatever you name it…

Together with Gab…

Somehow, I like this shot, the very moment when the cake fell… Although I look ugly…

My favourite shot of the day… Without my face… BUAHAHHAHAHHA~

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Afterall, thank you for the efforts, really appreciate it… A memorable birthday celebration…

OK, this situation is weird, Magicland is dead because I am too busy with my life… Been busy with work and outings… Yes, I am proud to say that I am having way too many outings lately with different people…

Life seems so interesting and happening… BUT, there is still something missing in my life… I am still feeling EMPTY… Yes, the empty HEART… There is nobody living in there, for once, I haven’t got someone to live in my heart for quite some time… Like I said before, I need to like someone, miss someone in order to make my life… Thinking of someone special makes me happy, and getting upset when I can’t see him, feeling excited to see him… All these ups and downs are missing in my life…

ARRRGGGGGHHHH… Can I please just get a random adorable person for me to miss?

What’s your will? What’s my will?

What’s his will?

I can imagine that if one day when I really don’t see myself loving my life… When I am upset about every single thing… When I don’t see any good future… When I don’t feel that I am needed…

I will probably think of killing myself… Since there is nothing for me to stay…

I would want to die with no regrets… If the decision made is the WILL… Everyone should be happy for the decision…

But, I am seeing a sad case… Yes, the will was probably there, but then unfortunately he wasn’t lucky enough that he could just be gone in seconds… In fact, he was unfortunately being SAVED by people, but there is no cure… He will still be gone but in a longer period with more pain…

At this moment, I really really wish that he would still do the same again if even another chance… Because, if he regrets now, then everything is just too late, which is VERY SAD!! I would rather believe that this is still the path he wants…

Finally, Darling and I went to CELEBRATE our Valentine’s Day on 15th February!! Was a good session of shopping, tea-ing and movie-ing… Watched LOOK FOR A STAR, well, I have to say I LIKE IT!!! Especially the MEN in the movie, the characters, so damn LUMMMMM… *yumyumyum* Now, where is my STAR?

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What did I do on this Valentine’s Day? I spent 6 hours in a hair saloon… And this is the result…

Ah Boy, my primary school friend, we weren’t in the same class, but we got to know each other through some mutual friends. We lost contact after primary school but we met again coincidentally in Genting last year, but didn’t keep in touch after that. Till this year, I saw him in Genting again! And we decided to keep in touch…

Having known him for about 15 years, this year was the first year that I was actually celebrating his birthday with him, also with quite a few long lost primary school friends, including the TWIN SISTERS Michelle and Melissa, Nicholas, Jonathan, David… It was a FUN and meaningful night out for me…

Ah Boy with his Flaming Lamborghini…

And because of the ONE JUG OF BEER that Gaby bought him + this Flaming Lamborghini bought by his friend, he couldn’t drive home! And because of this, I had to drive his car to send him back to Ampang and then I sent myself back home ALONE in his car at 2am!! I was so proud of myself, but I have to admit that it was so torturing!! I learnt a lesson, never let him drink anymore!!

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Hmmm… H, I considered him an OLD friend of mine, although we do chat on MSN once in a while, the last time we actually met up was long long long time ago. Finally, we had dinner together tonight, everything was good, the food, the company, the fun… After so long, nothing had really changed… By the way, we went to have Korean food at Seoul Korea at Taman Desa, it was SO GOOD!! I especially like the side dishes!! OMG OMG OMG, I hadn’t seen so many side dishes before this, the most I saw were maybe only 8… BUT WE COULD HAVE 14 at this place!! Damn generous!! I am gonna go back there again FOR SURE!! *yummmmmmmmmm*

OH, and he brought a friend along, Daniel, he was so funny!! He saw the fan was PANASONIC and so he talked to the boss and said they should have bought SAMSUNG instead of PANASONIC the Japanese brand… And he was trying to act like a Korean, but all he knows are just SAMSUNG, LG, HYUNDAI, WINTER SONATA… And even RAIN, so all he did was just repeating all these words as if he was saying some sentences… I enjoyed the session a lot with the 2 of them…

14 side dishes…

Although I really don’t want to reveal this, this something that is very sad… That MY LIFE IS BORING!!

At first, I was blaming MELBOURNE, the boring city that made my life so boring for the past few years!! And thus, I wanted to come home, to the VERY HAPPENING LAND in order to gain back some happening moments… BUT, apparently I was so wrong, it’s not the place, IT’S ME!! I am just too boring, I am OLD, I am no fun, I am just DULL…

This makes me feel even worse, with the so busy scenes out there, but I am just so not interested in it… In fact, the loneliness and boredom lie within myself… The bottom of my heart…

I am a boring person…