Month: November 2005

damn damn damn!! the day is approaching…!! and i am seriously not confident in it… especially my AFA!! damn… HELP!! everything is getting scarier and scarier now… bahhhh… i am getting ready to do another semester next year…

besides, i have got a call from my real estate agent… now i know that we are not allowed to look for house yet… as our contract is until march!! *WTF* and this lady told me that if we insist to move out meaning that we are breaching the contract… SO JUST LET US BREACH THE CONTRACT LAR!!! breach contract = pay fine only mar…!!! ishhh!!! why the hell dont let people move out one!! ishhh… 38 one forcing people to stay until march then only start looking for another house eh? sure sleep on the street edi lar… *MDHNSS*

arghhhhhhhh!!! where is my luck!! i need luck weik!!

oh my godzzz… this is getting irritating… at first, it’s already very hard to find a 4 rooms house… but then now is getting even more complicated with this one MAYBE not staying, then that one’s brother MAYBE coming… wahlaoo… how lar like this… *pengsan*

it seems like everyone is not sure with it… i feel like not wanna think of it edi… how i wish that i can PASS all this semester so that i need not to go to uni next semester and so that i can stay as far as i can… i can even move to SANCTUARY LAKES!! or PORT PHILIP to stay beside the beach… or i can be a BACKPACKER, backpacking around… or maybe i can stay in my cousin’s garage… or maybe i can even stay in KL!!!! aiskkkzzz… but… results… *worried*

GIVE ME A HOUSE LAR!!!! ish~~~

well, thankx for the comments, i really really appreciate it… thankx to zhanshen, CI, mayvis and yuenqi… i am sorry that if i made anyone worried about me… especially my mom… she was sad and disappointed… *SORRIE*

kinda surprised that i have found a loyal reader of MaGiCLaND… hehehehee… YURI =) although i dont know who you are, thankx for the supports and the comments… hopefully i wont be like a BABY anymore…

and because of the problem i faced, i then had the chance to talk to someone… HAHHAHAHA… this someone usually never wanna talk to me at all, always runs away from my messages… but he always there to talk to my problems… the person is…

* wheimeng * says:
I LOVE YOU VIAN YEE

hahahaha… love ya IDIOT!! =P

anyway, the next day my mom tried to talk to me on msn but i was out… and she thought that i wouldnt wanna talk to her, she emailed me… and she called me… she thought that i ignored her… *so childish =P* nah lar, i know that she cares… and i actually didnt hate her nor i was angry with her… it’s just that i was so irritated for so difficult to make a proper decision… in fact, i dont think that anyone was wrong for that matter, even me myself i dont know which is the correct way… i was just too confused… i dont know what to do, i am afraid that any decision made will be a mistake, i am not confident to make any move… i dont think anyone can gurantee which is the correct way, right?

hmmm… i am going to put this matter on hold, i replied my mom’s email and now waiting for her reply… and i have many other things to worry for… i am worrying for my house, need to move out soon but havent found a house yet… and i need a job which also i havent found yet… and… the god damn result will be out soon… and I AM SERIOUSLY WORRIED!!

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today went to a mini gathering with my primary school mates… everyone already working… they are doing quite good i assume… but there was one told me that it’s hard, and another one planning to go back soon as she hasnt found a job yet… well… it’s all luck i bet…

oh yea, finally one thing that i was kinda happy about for today… there was this girl, my friend’s friend… she asked me whether i TATTOO-ed my eyeliner… *wakakkakakakakaka* which means my eyeliner-drawing-skill is good! ekkekeke… professional huh!! and then she said that my skin was smooth and she asked whether i applied powder or foundation… i replied NONE… she was shocked… WAKAKKAKAKAKAKA~~ *yeay*

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then me and alice drove out to look for houses… we went to altona, point cook, newport, sunshine, westona, williamstown… we even went to a beach!! then we came to Sanctuary Lakes… WAHLAOOO!! damn nice weik!! *saliva dripping all the way* let’s me share some pics taken with my new baby n70… *note that pics taken in a MOVING car* i would rate it VERY CLEAR…

tell you what, this house is located MIDDLE of the lake… and you can jump into the lake from your house… so damn syiok yea…

nice leh…

and then… here comes the cam whore… =P

AnnChin says:
haiiii…………but u also have to see & think lah…..Wat we gather all the info now..is in Msia……now…every one talking if your children studying oversea….if they get job there bette lah….. come back….will problem…. the place also full crimes… eetc,…… so we as parents…. how???

ok… i am tired, i am seriously very tired… been arguing for the same topic non-stop for so long… you have never changed your mind, me too never planned to change… but now… I AM CHANGING!! enough… more than enough… i will do what you want me to do… ok!!!!

you have been asking me to plan for myself, think for myself… yes, i really do, and i know what i want and what i dont want… i know that i hate to be here, i know that how much i wish that i can go home… all the time, you SEEM to be very supportive, SEEM to give me much freedom for my future… but, on the other hand, you have never tried to give up on hoping for the miracle that i will one day decide to stay here… it’s all your wish…

every now and then, people coming from here and there keep telling me that staying is good, and in fact, the ONLY BEST CHOICE… meaning if i go back to malaysia = wrong… and so, when i say i dont wanna stay means i am wrong, means that i dont know how to think, means that my future will be sucks, means that i am a failure… all you telling me is my way is wrong, your way is right… you will stop nagging me until i say that ‘YES, I WILL STAY’…

so that my future will be working, working and working, saving up all the money until the day i die… and i will be dying with all my money!! i will be a rich ghost!! i bet that time i cant define what is a LIFESTYLE…

so if i stay, what would the reasons be? TWO reasons! first… the RM to AUD exchange rate, 3 : 1… very high huh, but does it matter me if i work here and i spend it here? NO! so who? of coz my parents in malaysia who will be freaking happy if i send them AUD1k and they will be getting RM3K… second… the reason is, staying here = right, going back = wrong, i have to do the right thing, so i have to stay. fullstop.

so, do i actually have a choice? the answer is NO! stop telling me that people are just giving ADVICES… bullshit!!! they are just telling me what to do…

can you please not making me to hate myself? not making me to hate staying alive? i already hate it to study here, staying here for that few years already such a pain, and you want me to stay here to work, to stay for long… GOOD, i will be hating my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn!! i am now feeling more and more stressed after exam… stressed over the result that will be out SO DAMN BLARDEE SOON!! *arrgghhh* i am worried lar… haiihzzzzz… do i have to kneel for passes? or do i have to suffer for another semester here? maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa… i dont dare to think man… =( been sleepless recently again… *aiskzzz* can people help me to pray ar? pray to either Allah, Buddha, Jesus… *bless me puhlease*

anyway, helping to find this lil 18 years old missing girl…
has anyone seen her?

for more info, click here

please pass around… thankiew… =)

well, finally i went back to laksa king to work after ONE YEAR!! and i was damn nervous as i was afraid that i was gonna be like a dumbass that had forgotten about everything… *in fact, it’s true* =P

and i was farking angry!!!! ma de, there is this new MANAGER damn 9 7 lan si man!!! beh tahan… i wanna quit edi!! duhhhh… the reason why i am back to there to work just because that mr and mrs boss are VERY NICE to me… but then now this lansi manager, she talks like a loud speaker, looks like a gangster, wears like a prostitute… she kept acting like a BOSS, kept raising up her voice, kept asking me to do this do that… fuhlaoyehh… *DULAN-NYER*

but luckily mr boss made me happy a while… first he came out to tell me ‘GOOD JOB!!’ *yeay* and of coz i said ‘thankiew =)’… then again he looked at me and said ‘you are getting prettier wor’ *WAKAKKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKA* =P

well, afterall, i still cannot tahan that BIATCH!!! *knnccbtnspkhkc*, maybe i will work for weekends only as my mrs boss told me that they need people to work during weekends… so that i think i shouldnt just leave like this… i am a responsible good girl *winkz*

arrgghhh… today is a farking bad day!!!! not happy since MORNING… bahhhhhhhhhh~~~ everything was not working fine… isshhhhhhh~~~~

firstly, i checked my hp once i opened my eyes from sleep… no new message… means… the sms that i sent last night already swimming in the sea… *fine* it’s not a real big deal though… but… aiskzzzz… disappointed…

then… ffked by housemate… double attacked early in the morning…

went all the way to canterbury road to look for jobs… farking far ok!! then who knows… they not hiring people!! aissskkzzz… my dream of working with chocolates is now really a DREAM!!

haiihzzzz… sadzzzzz!!

well, first time in my life having a BIG MAC!! wooohooo~~~ and i had it just because of CHARITY *clap clap* hence, i am a good person… HAHAHHAHAHAHA…

yea, it was MC HAPPY DAY yesterday, they donated 1 buck to the kids from any big mac sold… so, me the nice person, purposely went to buy a big mac just to make donation… further more, i also bought a wrist band from them, it costs me 2bucks and all 2bucks would be donated to the kids as well…

oh i am so good~~~~~~ =)

mc happy day…

love, hope, support…

i am happy… but i am not telling WHY… kekekekeke… it’s not the time yet… I AM NOT READY YET… =P

well… i will update this entry soon… stay tuned… =) *you may pick a guess though*

OH I LOVE YOU~~~~~

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[updated]

this is the reason that i am so happy!! my newly bought nokia n70!! fuhhhhhhhhhh… handsome lil baby yea… =)

*OH MY PRETTY BABY I LOVE YOU* kekekkekekekekee…

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*phew* after exam party!! i went to amber last night… with… not many people but then met a lot of people there… fuiyoorhh… like gathering only!! then this veron kept saying that i TOO KAKIZ edi, that’s why… ma de… those are my FRIENDS ok!! *blek*

well, it was a fun night after months since i last clubbed… and yea, i was lucky last night… *grinz* but, i decided to be a GOOD GIRL, ahhahahahaha… sorrie yea my lengjai accountant… *the whole group was saying that me being too bad giving a false hope to people by staying by his side whole night and then left without a word* kekekekekeke… although he was the type that i want, haiihzzz… =P oh well, but i am kinda regret though… =( things could have be better… IF ONLY IF IF IF… aiskzzzz…

well, it’s been 2 years using the REMOTE CONTROL phone edi… it’s time for a change!! and there are quite a few new models in the market… arrgggghhh… which to get leh!!

how nice if i have more comments on the phones, helping me to decide which one to get… =)

SE w900i or nokia n70 leh…