Month: February 2009

What’s your will? What’s my will?

What’s his will?

I can imagine that if one day when I really don’t see myself loving my life… When I am upset about every single thing… When I don’t see any good future… When I don’t feel that I am needed…

I will probably think of killing myself… Since there is nothing for me to stay…

I would want to die with no regrets… If the decision made is the WILL… Everyone should be happy for the decision…

But, I am seeing a sad case… Yes, the will was probably there, but then unfortunately he wasn’t lucky enough that he could just be gone in seconds… In fact, he was unfortunately being SAVED by people, but there is no cure… He will still be gone but in a longer period with more pain…

At this moment, I really really wish that he would still do the same again if even another chance… Because, if he regrets now, then everything is just too late, which is VERY SAD!! I would rather believe that this is still the path he wants…

Finally, Darling and I went to CELEBRATE our Valentine’s Day on 15th February!! Was a good session of shopping, tea-ing and movie-ing… Watched LOOK FOR A STAR, well, I have to say I LIKE IT!!! Especially the MEN in the movie, the characters, so damn LUMMMMM… *yumyumyum* Now, where is my STAR?

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What did I do on this Valentine’s Day? I spent 6 hours in a hair saloon… And this is the result…

Ah Boy, my primary school friend, we weren’t in the same class, but we got to know each other through some mutual friends. We lost contact after primary school but we met again coincidentally in Genting last year, but didn’t keep in touch after that. Till this year, I saw him in Genting again! And we decided to keep in touch…

Having known him for about 15 years, this year was the first year that I was actually celebrating his birthday with him, also with quite a few long lost primary school friends, including the TWIN SISTERS Michelle and Melissa, Nicholas, Jonathan, David… It was a FUN and meaningful night out for me…

Ah Boy with his Flaming Lamborghini…

And because of the ONE JUG OF BEER that Gaby bought him + this Flaming Lamborghini bought by his friend, he couldn’t drive home! And because of this, I had to drive his car to send him back to Ampang and then I sent myself back home ALONE in his car at 2am!! I was so proud of myself, but I have to admit that it was so torturing!! I learnt a lesson, never let him drink anymore!!

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Hmmm… H, I considered him an OLD friend of mine, although we do chat on MSN once in a while, the last time we actually met up was long long long time ago. Finally, we had dinner together tonight, everything was good, the food, the company, the fun… After so long, nothing had really changed… By the way, we went to have Korean food at Seoul Korea at Taman Desa, it was SO GOOD!! I especially like the side dishes!! OMG OMG OMG, I hadn’t seen so many side dishes before this, the most I saw were maybe only 8… BUT WE COULD HAVE 14 at this place!! Damn generous!! I am gonna go back there again FOR SURE!! *yummmmmmmmmm*

OH, and he brought a friend along, Daniel, he was so funny!! He saw the fan was PANASONIC and so he talked to the boss and said they should have bought SAMSUNG instead of PANASONIC the Japanese brand… And he was trying to act like a Korean, but all he knows are just SAMSUNG, LG, HYUNDAI, WINTER SONATA… And even RAIN, so all he did was just repeating all these words as if he was saying some sentences… I enjoyed the session a lot with the 2 of them…

14 side dishes…

Although I really don’t want to reveal this, this something that is very sad… That MY LIFE IS BORING!!

At first, I was blaming MELBOURNE, the boring city that made my life so boring for the past few years!! And thus, I wanted to come home, to the VERY HAPPENING LAND in order to gain back some happening moments… BUT, apparently I was so wrong, it’s not the place, IT’S ME!! I am just too boring, I am OLD, I am no fun, I am just DULL…

This makes me feel even worse, with the so busy scenes out there, but I am just so not interested in it… In fact, the loneliness and boredom lie within myself… The bottom of my heart…

I am a boring person…

Well, it’s the 2nd day at work today, it was much better than yesterday I would say!! Yesterday was really NOTHING, at least today, the last 3 hours, I learnt something… And hoping for more tomorrow…

And, THANKS WEI YU!! *hehehehehe* For dropping by to have lunch with me and thanks for the lunch, to celebrate my new job… BUAHAHAHHA…

Then I am now feeling excited, as tomorrow, my trainer aka BUDDY will be back from ANNUAL LEAVE!! Wooohoooo…

But, seriously, I miss my holidays… =(

Watched this movie days ago, although I don’t like the movie that much, at least I found some statements that I really really like and would like to keep that in mind…

“Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but theres also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along.”

Today marks the LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY for me!! And the next day will be me starting my FIRST PROPER JOB IN KL!! I am feeling nervous and excited… A whole new environment… But, I am seriously looking forward to this new start of my life, proving myself that I had made a right decision for coming home…

One thing I have to really talk about my this holiday is, I REALLY HAD SO MUCH FUN!! Unlike any other years that I came back and basically didn’t do anything crazy, mainly just catching up with friends… This time, I went to a few mini trips, had multiple crazy gambling sessions, met many new friends… Been out till VERY LATE in the morning, and I felt so WEIRD when I was home around 12am!! That was like SO EARLY AND SO WRONG!!

Especially Loopy, Chinny and Gaby, the 4 of us really make great outings together!! I am sure that I will miss Loopy when she is back in Melbourne and Chinny when he is back in the UK too… As for Gaby, I will still be seeing you around, just that not that often anymore and hope that you will get a new entertainer soon… BUAHAHHAHAHAH~

Wishing myself a great work life ahead, and of course a better life for everyone…