Month: October 2005

was rolling on the bed, couldnt fall asleep…

message sent: 03:53:51am 18-10-2005
“i miss you i need you i love you i want you”

message received: 01:55:46am (my time 03:55:46am) 18-10-2005
“yea wo me too! miss, wan, need, lups you!”

hahahahahah… what does the word ‘LUPS’ mean huh…? maybe… it doesnt mean LOVE… or, it hasnt reached LOVE yet…

but, i mean it…

anyhow, it’s sweet enough for me to fall asleep after that… *zZZzZZZzzZZzzZZzz*

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧, 恶魔在身边&#2#29255;尾曲
by 杨丞琳

hehehe… sounds like Happy Tree Friends eh… kekeke… yes, we got the idea from the cartoon… the 4 of us had a family meeting last night… we were talking about having our own business…

then suddenly we came to this bubble milk tea!! ahhahaha… all 3 girls love drinking bubble milk tea and we would love to work with it though… we wanna create our own brand… make it like easyway, like quickly and all… and of coz we wanna be better than them… hahahahhaha…

and i told mommie about it… mommie said… ‘no eye see’… ISHHH~

but then, having a F&B business has always been my DREAM life… i hope that i can settle down with it in my future… i want a place for people to relax themselves with environment, with food, with laughters… most importantly with FEEL…

*dream dream dream*

hmm… firstly, sorry to Mr. Titan_GigAs… probably i have used an inappropriate technique towards him… my main purpose of posting all these up was just to FORCE him to reveal who he actually is… but, at the end, it brought up a WAR here…

anyway, i personally dont want a war here… i am giving up…

to be frank, i am really really curious… WHO YOU ARE… but then, i will leave it up to you, i am not forcing anymore… i am tired… fed up… i dont mind making a new friend, if you dont mind… but, i am out of the war…

my mom requested to see my room after so long… finally, i snapped 2 pics of my room and sent to her… but, it’s my unlucky day, coz it’s REALLY messy these few days, been busy working on assignments… aisskkkzzz…

AnnChin says:
oh my god….!!! your room???

. : e R i C C a : . * 倒数2个月 – StarDee + DieT * says:
one bed for my boyfriend one mar

then… i showed her that i *pengsan*

this *pengsan* emoticon is just TOO CUTE!! ahhahaha…
p/s: please excuse me for that CHILDISH background, it’s my mom who changed it, NOT ME!!!

yeay!! back after staying in the hospital for more than a week and also after paying the doctor a sum of 1400bucks!!! *expensive siaoz*

anyway, it looks NEW and CLEAN, but then, i find it so… erm… weird… probably i already got used to his DENTED look… aiskzz… and, i think he looks a bit FATTER with a BIGGER BUM!! aiskzzz… my eyes got problem eh?

brand new bum… do you think that he needs a SPOILER?

himself…

with his friend…

p/s: we have a HUGE GARDEN, isnt it…

THANKIEW!! a lame person sent me this e-card… lame but cute… hahahaa… =)

ok… since our friend here is a STALKER…

This time on Fire liow says:
ok nyway i was browsing my fren’s friendster
This time on Fire liow says:
n then i saw the name errica… i was like is this the very yau sing kak punya ericca ..n so i check check lo
This time on Fire liow says:
although she has dissapointing no full bikini pics … i was damn happy to see her with furry animals
This time on Fire liow says:
i saw ah guin lo
This time on Fire liow says:
ah beh beh lo
This time on Fire liow says:
ah pao pao
This time on Fire liow says:
n ah terter
This time on Fire liow says:
n i decide to compose it lo

and… his phone number is 012-3190 117, email address is bishamon13@hotmail.com

WANTED!!!

i guess you are just loving to be on my blog and wanna get famous this way… aissskkkzz… ok lar, i will let you be then… =) FREE advertising for you, THANK ME OK!!

anyone who knows this person, LET ME KNOW!!

another late night working on assignment… hmmm… there is this picture that i really LAUGHED out and said WHAT THE FARK when i first saw it today… the weird thing is, i dont even know the person who did it… the only thing i know is that he/she is from LYN… but i dont know him/her in person, not even gender and name… hahahaha…

anyway, thankx yea… it’s cute… =)

cutely done by Titan_GigAs…

[UPDATE]

this FRIEND here doesnt wanna reveal himself/herself…

was home alone just now… so decided to make a call to mommie for a chat… but EXPECTEDLY… our conversation became a war…

all the time, yes, i really mean it ALL THE TIME… we cant get a smooth and happy conversation whenever it touches my STUDIES… often get into the blaming-each-other-situation… yes, i really blame her for letting me to come over… and i really blame her for not letting me to go back to continue it since i really dont like to be here… but she claims that i should appreciate my opportunity being here… NEVER ENDING BLAMING…

i dont know… it’s not that i dont wanna study, it’s not that i dont wanna graduate… please man… i think i hate studying than anyone else… and i have been trying harder and harder to LOVE my course, to communicate with my course, to understand my course… but then, i just freaking dont get a thing!! i just cant make it better…

i used to be quite confident in myself, i used to tell myself that i could do it… but… after so many falls, been failing for like… *uncountable times*… i really have no guts to hope for something good… i have no confidence anymore… in my mind, i only know that i am a failure, i will never ever get things right…

this semester, is a very very important semester to me… i seriously cannot afford to fail anymore!! i really dare not to imagine what will happen to me if i really fail again…

all these sleepless nights been bothering me too often… i try to get my self to sleep when i feel tired… but once i am on the bed, i will start thinking of how to do the assignments, how to answer the exam questions, how to prepare for the papers, how to study better, how to memorise easier, how to this and how to that… besides, thinking of the time and money that i have spent, thinking of the disappointments that i have brought to everyone, thinking of my shittie future… till i am too stressed to sleep, and i will get up to on my lights… open my book… continue studying or working on it again…

i am just feeling so EMPTY… so HOPELESS… so HELPLESS… so LIFELESS… where the fark is my future… where the hell is my happiness…