Such A DumbFuck…

wow… great news i got from this friend… so happened that he knows WJ… and he was happily telling me that WJ actually has a REAL GF and also some other girls… what a joke man… my mind suddenly went blind, really surprised…

i took my friend’s phone to sms him… told him that i am tired of being a fool, but it’s my fault of willing to be fooled… for 3 years… but then he said it’s not 3 years because he said i was happily enjoying while i was in aust… and he asked me what i expect actually… i told him that i didnt expect him to lie, i thought that he would at least mean 50% of his words, but he didnt… and he said that i was happily with others too… ok, i was, but i didnt lie… i told him everything in fact… and of course i also know that he is playful and i know that he has many girls, but who cares, i am playful and i have many guys too… as long as… we know the limit and the most important thing is… i am responsible, i am not attached to anyone… i thought he is the same too… but in fact… he has a gf… basically, this is the part that i am superly disappointed at…

i actually told him that… thanks for the happiness as well as sadness… and also disappointments, they are seriously priceless… and also asked him not to worry about the chocs and the tee, they are the first and last gifts from me…

no… i didnt cry… very surprisingly, i was shocked too… but i could feel the pain in me… cracking pain… but i couldnt cry… how i wish that i could cry… it should be better i think… probably, i already dont know how to cry for him anymore…

[updated]
2 mins after i published this entry… and i knew that miracle wont happen… yes, i already started to cry…