Confusing Relationship…

I’m back in Melbourne… Been away for a while, back in KL for CNY… Had a pretty busy holiday… Out out out all the time… Till I almost forgot that I actually have a BF in Melbourne… I didn’t call him, I didn’t even have time to talk to him when he called… Sometimes, when I had the time, I didn’t know what to talk to him, so I pretended to be busy… I have been thinking that, since I don’t even care that much, might as well just make it an end…

He picked me up from the airport last night… It’s so cold… Not the weather, but the relationship… It felt so different, not like before… I felt the difference, he felt the difference, we felt the difference… But, nobody wanna make the decision…

Finally, he made the decision… I thought I was hoping for that, I thought I would be happy for the decision… In fact, I didn’t… I felt uneasy… I had a weird feeling… I didn’t want to let go…

What do I want? What should I do? I need help…