Category: eRiCCa

LOVE between family, lovers and friends… i would say the most unpredictable one is LOVERS…

family is the best support after all… they start loving you from the moment you meet them… eventhough you have a fight, you still love them and forgive them after that… which is the endless love…

friends… you know that you are just friends, you dont or i would say you know that you CANT expect much from your friends… they are still just friends…

lovers… you think that he is yours, you are his… you expect much… you hope that you will be together forever… you forgive and forget about all unhappiness… you try, you put in effort, you pray… for everything to go smooth… but, in the end… nobody knows… there is no rules and regulations… there is no Law of Averages, nothing about the more you love someone, the more love you will get in return…

basically, LOVE between lovers is just so crappy… yes, it’s gambling… it’s luck…

this is why some people commit suicide after losing money… and same goes to why some people commit suicide after losing a lover…

why love?

hmmm… been chatting with WeeHong for almost half a day… and really glad that the feeling is still there… and also thankx for the NEWS… hehehehee…

but on the other hand, i am kinda upset… it seems like i am totally out of the circle already… i cant talk, i cant know, i cant ask, i cant join… it’s the distance? or the people? or the timing? i have no idea… all i know is… i have tried. and i am tired, too. i am really AMAZED at those people who can actually handle their long distance relationships, they are so great!

imagine if i am going to stay in melbourne for few more years… probably i will only have my family as my friends…

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anyway, thanks baby for the VIRUS… =P yea, i am sick… *hahahahahah* baby lost weight after falling sick for few days… hmmmm… let’s see whether i will lose any weight or not… kekekekeke…

for some reasons, i miss daddy very much… and i am feeling so blessed that i have such a daddy that loves me so much… and of course, i love him very much too…

always say YES to me, always give what i want, pampering me to the max… never scold me, never make me feel bad… the most important thing is… he is always proud of me…

some people say that USUALLY fathers love daughters more while mothers love sons more… well, maybe…

*ouch* havent been to so many interviews in my life before… and dressing up in business attire makes me feel weird… further more, it’s DAMN WINTER!! grrrrrr… business attire is not warm enough… =(

thought of giving everything a shoot, so i decided to go to ANY interview that i was given a chance to… well, basically it’s a good experience… at least i know what they are, what they do… no regret attending it although i had to wake up 6am in the morning… *yawnz*

sales jobs… they can somehow motivate me… but… a sales job without base salary… hmmm… i dont think it’s time YET… i am just a newbie, what do you expect from me… aiskzz…

anyway, better luck next time =)

poor babyben is sick… he cant even drive but nobody can bring him to see a doctor… and he doesnt know how to cure himself while he is alone at home… awwwwwwwwwww… i feel so sorry… because… i dont know what to do too… =( *pray pray pray* get well soon…

i am back after so long… wondering if anyone missed me? anyone thought that i already dead? hmmmmmm…

today, let’s have fun enjoying pictures…

first… the SUPERMODEL aka CAMWHORE eRiCCa… awwwww… so pretty *yumyum*

second… some funny notices for fare evaders that i found on the train… you people please PAY lar!! duh!! i am glad that i am a nice person, i pay for every trip… this is why i am so damn poor… =(

third… the GIANT ulcer that i had… on my lip… so damn hard to eat… *pat pat ericca*

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well, my days are so robotic… everyday is the same… basically still looking for jobs everyday… still jobless… spending time with babyben… sleep… msn… tvb… SO DAMN BORING!!!!

haiihzzz… this is the 2nd day i am not seeing my cute lil laptop.. i miss him so much… i feel so lifeless without my laptop… i really feel like nothing to do at all…

thank god i have cousins around me, and luckily the aunties were here so that we could go out all day… but but but… damn… they are leaving tomorrow already… the house is going to be quiet… and i will be bored till death… sitting at home doing nothing…

and also, thankx Teri jie for the laptop… so that i can use it to do some internet surfing, msn chatting and tvbing… but… still i dont feel comfortable… I WANT MY BABY LAPTOP BACK!!! =(

he is actually ‘on its way’ to the doctor… he is sick… he is old… he might be going to die soon… he might need to undergo some organ transplant… haiihhhzzz…

come come, let’s do a prayer for him… *$%^&*(&^%$#^&*()&^%$#^

yeay… i went to work on saturday as a product demonstrator for Organics By Nature. basically, my job was just standing there, asking people to TASTE our food… a free tasting job… easy but boring… especially i was working with this indian guy, he was so damn quiet eventhough i kept talking to him, he only gave me his not-so-charming-smile… *pengsan* luckily it’s only 5hours… thank god… but, when is my next job? they didnt tell me… =(

then later went to this karaoke near my place… it’s just walking distance and i hadnt been there before… *idiot* i was impressed by the place, it’s very classy, it’s so much different from the normal karaoke places that we always go… it’s very very new and the price was not bad… 40bucks/hour for the room… one bad thing is that it’s a KOREAN karaoke, VERY hard to communicate with them, even the remote control was in korean words too… we could only GUESS the function of the buttons… we sneaked in a bottle of alcohol, or i would say I, as i hid the bottle in my jacket… then we just ACTED to buy one bottle of red label from them… and we *except me as i had to drive* finished 2 bottles… *applause* because of this, the guys got so mad, all turned into kids after some shittie drinks…

oh well… that’s my weekend after exam… sounds so relaxing… =)

and now i am browsing ebay for fun… and being disturbed by the lousy boy who is watching ‘SILENT HILL’… he told me it’s an ACTION MOVIE and asked me to watch together… but dont know why… i saw someone using pillows to cover his face… hmmm… luckily i didnt get cheated and i still think that EBAY is much more interesting…

now… *pray pray pray* for more jobs…

just started the very first day of my HAPPY LIFE…

wake up, eat, tvb while eating chocolate, while msn-ing, then drink AH MAH’s tong shui, then smelling something nice because AH MAH cooking pan mee… omgomgomg… waiting for more and more happier moments to come… syiok!!!!!!!

FUHLAMAK~~~~~~

i am so happy… i am a happy piggy… i am a happy bird… *fly fly fly*

*yeay* i am FINALLY done with my exam!! wooohoooo~~~~ and now, i am a certified jobseeker… hmmm… I NEED A JOB!! come come come, give me a job offer… =)

lalalallalaa~~~ and also a certified TVB freak… i am going to watch it 24/7… *yumyum* i miss this kinda life while i was staying in footscray, recalling myself lying down on the bed most of the time watching TVB happily… so happy… now… i am going to be like that again… UNTIL one day, i start screaming OH MY GOD I AM SO DAMN BORED… that means i have had enough of it… =) *orgasm*

muacks…

Weeeeeeeee… Tuesday is coming!! Final exam is coming!! Wooohooo~~~ and also AH MAH is here too… ahhahahahaa… basically, AH MAH is my cousins’ grandma, she is coming over for holiday for weeks I think… and so I have to move back to my own shit hole to ACT like a good homely girl… as well as a TVB freak… ekekekekekeke…

Hmmm… and also a BREAK… for me, for him, for US… we have been seeing each other too often… and thus, too much time for arguments… now, I guess it’s time for us to have some own time… some peaceful time… some selfish time… some freedom time… and also some time that we can know LESSER about each other, the more you know, the more you have to face… I prefer to hide, but curiosity always kills me… arggghhhh, who cares… as long as it’s some GOOD time… and hopefully after this, we shall realize something new and different… =)

And I think I am insane… days ago, she just admitted that she wants him back… she asked him to leave me and go back to her… what a brilliant idea… and days later, I am letting him to go out with her AS FRIENDS… which I think I am very UNDERSTANDING… or… am I too confident or am I too tired…

*bluek* study… concentrate…