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*weeeeeeeheeeeeeeeee* Another new jacket that I am in love with!! Got it from ebay for only 50bucks!!

I actually got it about a month ago, but I didn’t like the smell, maybe it was stored in a garage or whatsoever, so it was STINKY!! I washed it a few times and left it outside at the balcony for weeks…

And, left it in a bag that already sprayed with PERFUME, and YES, finally I am wearing it!! *wooohooooo*

Happily wore this to gathering =)

*yeay* Getting REALLY excited, because I am going for my FIRST Japanese Buffet in MELBOURNE!! And, my godz, it is something like a SURPRISE, because I have never heard of the place, and never heard of ANY review or comment about it, only one word in my mind TRY!! And the scariest part is, when it is ONLY AUD25!! Damn, I really don’t know how good can that be… *sweat*

But, I am happy because this is a LAI MENG gathering again!! It’s also some sort of celebrationS for AiWei’s birthday, HaeSim’s completion of her CPA, SuYin’s finally found a new place to move to, YeeKhoon and I finally found a JOB… So yea, it WILL BE FUN!!

I am ready to go… in… 1 hour =P

刚看过了一个朋友的BLOG，想起我们的故事，我哭了。。。一个感觉很熟悉，却又不怎么熟悉的朋友，一个不曾讲电话，不曾一起玩，不曾坐着聊天，但只通过文字联络的朋友。

在学校里没有共同的朋友，没有共同的嗜好，却偏偏不知怎么样有了一点点的关系。。。

不常见面，不常通信，却会偶尔想起，感觉还是一样，没有变化，没有陌生。久久一次的问候可以很窝心，可以很感动。虽然很远，却很真实。

6年没见了吧，真的很想再见一次 =)

*yeay* A cam-whore is so happy when she actually found that she can cam-whore in the office too!! WOOOHOOOO!!

I found this place, it’s the SHOWER, there are 4 showers in the office. They are usually for people who shower before work, who go jogging during lunch hour, or who go to the gym during lunch hour, and also people who wanna go out after work and can’t be bothered going home to get changed… So, this is the place…

And now, it’s MY PLACE to cam-whore!! =P

又是感觉孤单寂寞和无聊的时候了。。。总是忽然间有这种感觉。。。

一种想家的感觉，一种无依无靠的感觉。。。

有点讨厌5点钟下班回家没事干的感觉，有点讨厌周末没上班的感觉，很讨厌时间太多的感觉。。。

很想念那种很多功课，很多考试，很多朋友，很多节目，很多加班的日子。。。

现在的我，最爱看着钟，希望它可以很快很快地过。。。

为什么我的人生可以这么苦闷。。。

The month of uni results are out, and also the month of people leaving home as they are graduated… CONGRATULATION!!

But… Everyone is gone… More and more will be gone…

Soon, there will be nomore yumcha session, clubbing session, K session, mahjong session… Soon, we will be all rotting at home… Or, will be a workaholic… I think I should get more jobs for myself, to make myself work more, so I don’t have to be rotting anymore…

Haiihzzzz… Can all of you fail your subjects and stay back? =(

What a sleepless night, rolling on the bed recalling the scene, I just can’t fall asleep…

A serious disappointment, something that I saw… Now I know why people say gambling can be bad to relationships between people…

When I gamble, my main intention is just to play the game, and don’t like to win too much money, especially from family and friends…

When I was winning, then I started losing next because this someone was playing on behalf of one of the players… Expected, because this someone is known to be LUCKY and ALWAYS winning without fail… I didn’t mind, because I was just losing money that I won earlier… Until I lost all my winnings and started losing, I decided to stop playing, but I was told to play for the last round…

So my turn to ask this someone to play on my behalf… But, this suggestion was being rejected, saying it’s NOT FAIR… I was thinking to myself, when he was winning for you then it’s fair, winning for me then it’s not fair? I felt hurt looking into that face, a face that showed me selfishness, that had an intention to win me… It shows me that they were just afraid that this someone would win their money for me…

And also it’s not a good idea to play with people who will gang up to minimise losses. Sometimes too smart in counting is not good. I have always wanted to believe that my family and friends wouldn’t do things like that, and I even had argument with people who told me that they would. I tried to protect them, I chose to believe in them. Or rather I would say, I chose to close one eye not to see it, because I wanted to keep these players with me and also the relationship. But when I was told “Of course I will win yours, because winning her money is also my money”… Now, this is no longer GAME that I initially thought… It’s now about WINNING MONEY… So, I taught myself no matter what, the main point is to WIN MONEY!! So, I won some with anger in it together with the WINNING MONEY intention…

But today, when I thought that I shouldn’t be like that, so I turned back to the old me… Win for the fun and then lose back the winnings… But, it happened again, the scene showed that people didn’t think like how I thought…

Again…

I am not sure if I should be like them, win win win in mind… I don’t mind if I lose because I am a shit player or I have bad lucks… But if I lose because I got cheated, by family and friends… That’s something that I don’t understand…

Anyway, hopefully I feel better after this and can fall asleep soon…