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Been so stressed recently… Emotional, I hope it’s only me, I hope I haven’t emotionally disturbed anyone here yet… =)

Well, at least I laughed for once at this…

Haha, my mom can’t spell FINGER… =P

It doesn’t seem like my blog anymore without my camwhoring pictures… I can’t let this be so DOWN anymore… CHEER UP A BIT!!

Tired Ericca after work… BB said I looked cute today, so must take picture… ^^

If you notice, my hair is now STRAIGHT!! =(

Sometimes, I don’t even know whether I should solve it or not… When you try to solve it, there will be more and more hard time coming up… Sometimes maybe it’s better to keep it flow by itself…

Baby, do you know how much you are worrying me? Do you know how much I try not to worry? I TRIED HARD… But, it is just not working… Sometimes, maybe it is better to not to force you and us, but maybe I should just force myself to be stronger…

I remember someone told me… It’s fine when they enjoy the world out there, as long as they come home…

Is that supposed to be?

I remember you told me, we are sharing both the happiness and sadness… But, it seems like you are sharing your happiness with your friends, while I have to take all my sadness…

I don’t understand…

You have done so much so much to make love within us, you have shown me how much you love me, you have taught me how to love you, you have given chances to learn… NOW, I have learnt, and I know… But, you are not taking it…

X says:
i think, u indeed love him
X says:
and when he started to become like this
X says:
ur heart broke
X says:
because before this
X says:
u take it for granted that he will not change and will always be that way
X says:
sorry if this sound harsh o
X says:
there is a few choices now, i think
X says:
1) break up, suffer heart ache for a while and recover and move on
2) stay in this and go on suffering heart ache until he learned
3) go on with this and pretend nothing happen
4) pretend nothing ever happened at all

I will definately not going for 1, because I know he will change. He gave me a chance when I was bad before, I need to give him a chance, and I know he will.

I think I am doing 2 now.

I wished I could turn back time, to redo all those mistakes in the past. If only I knew what would be happening next.

Just like now, I seriously think that there were HELL LOTS of mistakes that I shouldn’t have done. All these silly mistakes are turning my life into a miserable broken life. It’s not me in me anymore. I live without soul. I daydream about how nice IF and ONLY IF this wasn’t happening.

Also, I wonder if I could forgive myself?

I am that kinda person who always asking for the truth… But, I think there is sometimes, I don’t want to know the truth, I hope that I won’t know it forever… As long as there is nothing changing in my life…

I guess I am very weak in coping with changes…

I think I am a NOOB, I don’t know how to answer this question.

“Love has no awareness of merit or demerit; it has no scale… Love loves; this is its nature.” – Howard Thurman

“Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end.” – Anonymous

I might not know how to love, but I wished I could love you the way you wanted, and make you feel loved. I wished I could proudly tell you that I KNEW I LOVED YOU… and also I’M SORRY… 无心伤害…

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I KNEW I LOVED YOU on YouTube

I’M SORRY on YouTube

无心伤害 on YouTube

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I Knew I Loved You Lyrics
By Savage Garden

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

I’m Sorry Lyrics
By Tyrese

I’m sorry for, what I’ve done.
I broke your heart, now we’re apart(for ever more).
I’m sorry for, making you cry(making my baby cry, oh).
I broke your heart, now I’m alone(I don’t think I’m going anywhere baby).

无心伤害
By 杜德伟

真心仍在与你永不分开
这一生只愿和你相爱
与你同在只为你等待
爱是纯真爱是无恨
不在乎怎么会痛苦万分
我真的太笨不懂心疼
baby please come back oh y

We went to this hot pot place in Southbank to celebrate Phui Yean’s birthday last night. The price was good, 15bucks for eat all you can, kinda worth it if you are a big eater. Especially if you *heart* MEAT!! But, not too many choices though. Only some beef, lamb, pork, vegetables, balls, crab sticks, prawns, mussels… Nothing’s special.

Oh, the special thing is their 麻辣 *MA LAT* is not even spicy *WTF*

And another special thing is their SERVICE!! ICHIBAD!! The restaurant was ALMOST empty, they had more than 20 TABLES there but only less than 3 were occupied. And then there were more than 5 waitresses doing almost nothing over there. They couldn’t even bothered to serve us while they told us SELF SERVICE. That’s fine. They didn’t even GREET you or say THANK YOU or whatsoever manners that A REASONABLE PERSON should have. They even talked to you with 2 hands in the pockets. *BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD*

In the end, Jimmy did a very good job!! He purposely messed up the table and said “甘串，抹抬啦你” *So rude, clean up the table then*…

NOMORE TO THAT PLACE!!

What a boring Friday night!! Everyone ditched me!! =(

My housemates all gone to lovey-doveyly paktor-rator with the bfs…

My gambling partners, one has gone to Sydney also to lovey-doveyly paktor-rator cum romantic-ratically celebrating birhtday… Another one is sick of the city-rity life and got addicted to the kampung-rampung life in Clayton…

My darling Cheryl is now FKN-RKN her assignments non-stoply…

My BB has gone to karaoke with his workmates…

OMG!! I am ALL ALONE BY MYSELF now!! Maybe I should start playing the song “Better off alone”… And then start fengtau-ing while blogging…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFWFIE__Tio

Let’s predict something… Soon, I will be EMO again… *Bah*