Author: eRiCCa

Thanks to everyone, everyone who involved in this period, including NEW FRIENDS who just came to my chatbox to make comments and all… Maybe we should become friends? If you guys wanna leave me your contacts… =)

Of course also those who really worried about me and tried to help me… My close friends, family and relatives… You people are just so great!! =)

My crappy but helpful First Ex-BF, Esmund. Thanks for talking to me almost everyday and comforting and scolding me at the same time… HAHA, it works!! Like you said, I only come to you when I have problems, and you will never let me down… Hopefully I don’t have to talk to you anymore… BYE YOU GO AWAY! =P

Also, I must say this to CHANDLER, eh, thanks for trying to help me and also at the same time helping yourself… =P I guess I am now feeling so much better, but you are still feeling miserable huh… Don’t worry, everything will be better soon, especially you have got me as your new best friend… HAHAHAHAHHA… We fell down together, so we will stand up together too, OK? =)

Hmmm… And, this very important one, you won’t be reading this, you don’t even know about my blog, but I have to say that, because of you, my days are filled with smiles and laughters… THANK YOU!! I will give you the return that you want, that I know that you really want me to be happy =)

I am feeling so LOVED by so many people, I should be glad that I am so blessed… *muacks*

I am feeling so confused and miserable again, been thinking of what’s in his mind…

I am confused that WHO IS HE? Why is he so contradicting? I am feeling scared that it seems like I don’t know this person who talked to my brother… Did he fake it to my brother, or he faked it towards me?

Did he talk to my brother for a reason? Trying to pass on some messages to me? But I don’t get it…

Why can’t he be more straight forward? Why so many faces? Why trying to cover something?

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY…

I am sure SOME people will be happy reading this entry…

Well, I am now feeling even much better, because I am finally away from him, which is a good thing… Thanks to my brother, and I have no idea why he likes to talk to my brother knowing that my brother would tell me everything in the end… He has been biatching about me to my brother all the time, and keep making it a big fuss… OMG, can’t you just be more gentleman A BIT? The worst reason he said was, because HE LOVED ME MORE THAN I LOVED HIM… WAHSAI, like this also can be a valid reason ar? Geng lor, use a scale lor then… Also, he would forgive me if I actually flew back to him BEFORE he decided on the break up, what is that?

Haiihzzz… I guess it’s my turn to become disappointed at him at this point, why would one who loved me so much has turned to hate me that much?

He used to say to me that he wanted to marry me as soon as possible because HE WANTED TO BE WITH ME EVERYDAY… BUT, he told my brother that he wanted to get married is to have someone to take care of his family… HELLO? MAID KAH? And my brother told him that… “If one day you both really decided to get married, I would say NO” My brother told me that I was so lucky to be able to stay away from him… HAHAHAHAHA

It’s a MONDAY, I am feeling kinda refreshed after a HECTIC weekend… HAHA, very hectic that I spent my whole weekend talking to different people ALL THE TIME… Yes, that’s my HOBBY and that’s my way to keep myself busy in order to not think about nonsense things…

Really BIG THANKS to so many people that willing to spend time talking to me, and I know I might be a bit of annoying… Trust me, it won’t be for long I promise!! Please let me annoy for a bit bit more ok? Please lar…

And yes, I have all my heart to move on now!! Knowing the real reason that there is nothing that I can do, and he already made up his mind, I shouldn’t be hoping for more… And also, maybe you guys are right, I won’t be happy with him for long because of the character wise… Also I believe, I love him, so I should respect his decision, I should let go to make him feel better, I should not make him suffer anymore…

At least, I feel the love from my family A LOT… Family ROCKS!!!!!!

It’s hard, it’s so damn hard… Why can’t the time fly faster? I hate it when the time is passing so slowly, I have too much time but I don’t have him…

Feeling so empty, feeling so unloved, feeling so stupid, all these feelings are killing me minute by minute… I really wish that there is only a minute in a day… Especially when it’s now 3 hours away from all my beloved family and friends, I don’t get to talk to them when I wake up at 9am in the morning, what I can do is just sit there and think…

I am seriously waiting for the day to come that I can go home and just stay under my parents’ arms…

I hate AUSTRALIA!! If it’s not Australia, I wouldn’t be in this deep shit now!! My relationship would work so well!! I shouldn’t have come here in the very first place, this place is just so depressing!! I shouldn’t just leave and go home during my 2nd year!!

F U C K I T !!!!!!

I never thought that I would want to get involved in LDR, until I met him… The magic of love told me that we could work it out… And it worked pretty well for 7 months… And then the K session happened, he lost his trust on me… Tragedy finally happened after another month…

It is this bad in LDR, where you can’t see each other you don’t feel secured… Obviously, he was feeling insecured, he didn’t trust me…

If there is a second chance, I will take it for sure, I want to prove to him that I love him with all my heart, I will do anything to make him happy, I will just quit my job and stay with him, so that he can monitor me 24/7 and won’t feel insecured anymore, as long as he is happy…

But, since there is nothing that I can do now, the misunderstandings hurt him that much, but I really hope that he will one day understand that I didn’t cheat or do anything bad behind his back, I want to let him know that I will never hurt him as I am the one who is upset when he is upset…

Now, all I can do is wait for the day that he is willing to talk to me, willing to listen to my explanations, willing to give me a chance to cure his broken heart… Or, I will wait for the day that when he is able to accept me as a friend… I will still want to be his friend again…

“双子座VS双鱼座 双子座在感情中是很傻的，双鱼座在感情方面其实是比双子座聪明的，因此一段感情通常都是双子座在努力，因此如果双子座的条件很好就有可能会先闪，如果双子座条件不好的话就会继续留下来努力。 “

Well, finally my sweet dream, my fairy tale love story, my wonderful life, my best moments, my best man are now gone… And I am now awake again in this cruel world…

This time, I have got nothing much to say, I know exactly what’s happening, I know exactly what I have done wrong… And also knowing that it’s the worst ending ever that I have ever expected…

Thanks for being such a lovley baby to me, you are the best man that I have ever met, ever had, that I would really want to have for the rest of my life, spending my whole life with you… But, I don’t deserve you, I am seriously sorry for what I have done to you, the damage that I have caused to you, I really didn’t mean it…

I wish for one day that you will still remember me as the one you loved… I love you my babyangel…

Ever since long long time ago, ever since WJ and H, I had never felt like this until now… The feeling is back… Exactly the same… But the difference is, I think I am no longer suitable for this kinda feeling, I am no longer at that age…

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親愛寶貝/郭富城

嘿 你在想我嗎 親愛的寶貝 我在想你
嘿 你在想我嗎 親愛的寶貝 我在想你

多麼的幸運與你沉醉同樣的夢境
這份情緣 彷彿等待多年
才能與你相遇 不分離
在星夜裡 只想擁抱著你相喂相依

嘿 你在想我嗎 親愛的寶貝 我在想你
嘿 你在想我嗎 親愛的寶貝 我在想你

我永遠是屬於你的我
我願重覆古老的誓言
地老天荒永不變
任你帶領向愛前進
屬於你的心 從現在開始

嘿 你在想我嗎 親愛的寶貝 我在想你
嘿 你在想我嗎 親愛的寶貝 我在想你

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如果你還愛我 – 光良

我帶著一顆疲憊的心走了　我知道自己在你心裡已不重要
雖然我們曾經相聚過　也許對於你來說
已經沒有什麼值得回憶

我帶著一顆沉重的心走了　我知道自己沒有勇氣道別離
雖然我們曾經擁有過　但是對於你來說
已經沒有什麼值得回憶

難道早已註定　不能真正擁有你
難道我真心付出一切　是為了承受孤單和寂寞
我知道你不敢對我坦白　是不要看到我的傷懷
雖然你沒有說要離開我　我已經感到你不再屬於我

如果你還愛我　你不會對我如此的冷漠
又怎會讓我在漫漫長夜獨自徘徊
如果你還愛我　你不會對我如此的冷漠
我只能含著眼淚
默默的離開

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想你想得好孤寂 – 邰正宵

從你走後　細雨不停
聽著雨聲　夜夜醒到天明
眼角流出無言的淚
是回憶在胸口偷哭泣

痛過想過　慢慢看清
外表平靜　是騙你騙自己
用微笑送你　還答應把祝福給你
忘了問誰收留我的心

當你為了我和他而猶豫
我不該只等待你作決定
如果任性　那麼一次把你抱緊
也許不會失去你

Oh Oh Oh
(&#25105想你想得好孤寂
我想你想得好痛心
向天大聲喊愛你
恨我說出口的不到愛的萬分之一
到如今還能說給誰聽
Oh Oh Oh 想你想得好孤寂
我想你想得好痛心　向著遠方喊愛你
深深愛一個人根本不該苦苦壓抑
一點遲疑　一生的悲凄

生活凌亂　漫無頭緒
想要以往　分秒也不醒
不敢面對狂亂那個自己
又不能回到平靜的過去

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王菲 – 我願意

思念是一種很玄的東西　如影隨行
無聲又無息出沒在心底
轉眼　吞沒我在寂寞裡

我無力抗拒　特別是夜裡
想你到無法呼吸
恨不能立即　朝你狂奔去
大聲的告訴你

願意為你　我願意為你
我願意為你　忘記我姓名
就算多一秒　停留在你懷裡
失去世界也不可惜

我願意為你　我願意為你
我願意為你　被放逐天際
只要你真心　拿愛與我回應
甚麼都願意　甚麼都願意　為你

我願意為你　我願意為你
我願意為你　被放逐天際
只要你真心　拿愛與我回應
甚麼都願意　我甚麼都願意　為你

曾經羨慕那些可以離鄉背景, 不在家里住的人… 想怎樣就怎樣… 沒有被罵被嘮叨的日子… 夜歸或不歸都不是問題… 多爽!

可是, 離開了, 才知道家里真好…

這些日子, 沒有約束, 反而覺得像個孤兒, 原本被煩是很幸福的… 早出晚歸, 或是不見了都沒人知道… 愁吃愁穿愁沒錢…

我, 很想回家…

2個多月,就可以回家啦… 可是, 這會是個對的決定嗎? 會後悔嗎? 會習慣嗎? 會想再回來嗎?

再看吧…

原本,我以為的一切根本就不是我以為的那樣…

如果,真的有神靈,可否告訴我該如何…