Author: eRiCCa

Case 1:

a man, who is the only SON in the family and of coz his parents would like him to get married… but, he is already in his mid age and still doesnt wanna get married and he feels very annoyed when his parents, siblings keep asking him to get married… he keeps saying that he is very sad and he doesnt wanna be forced to do something that he doesnt like to do… and he thinks that it’s not time yet…
then, the parents and siblings are angry, disappointed, sad coz of this…
what would you do is you are the man? and what would you do if you are one of the the family members?

Case 2:

what’s the difference between:
i) A be with B ONLY if they can be forever…
ii) A be with B and doesnt care whether permenant or temporary…
iii) A only wanna be with B for the every next minute…

thankx god!! finally i am having my bigpond with me, i am no longer broandbandless!! yea yea yea!! and i am now using wireless too!! so great!! fark that dial up!! *go away*

i had bad gastric last night whole night and i couldnt sleep well!! so painful, i kept rolling here and there!! shiat!! and i told my mom about it… she is like asking about my foot every single day… and please lar… not much different can it make from a day to a day!! and she asked me to LEARN how to take care of myself… and i told her that i FAILED this subject edi… hahahaha… damn hard weik!!!

specially dedicated to this 1-day-younger-brother of mine, but he has always been a big brother aka best friend to me… my 25% of friends, meaning VERY VERY important!! thus, I LOVE YOU!!

he is caring, friendly, funny, stupid, noisy, shittie, farked up, smart, hardworking, lame, kind, generous, romantic, cool, tall, huggable, fierce, cute… *list goes on* he has so many goods and bads, and i dont like him but i like him too *what the fark* ahahahahaha…

yea, that’s true, i used to hate him like MADZ!! till the stage that i think… we didnt talk to each other for more than half a year? i didnt even wanna take a glance of him!! even nowadays i dislike him sometimes… still i love him and like him most of the time till we could hangout everyday and night and never feel bored when i was back in kl… we went shopping, eat, play, club, yumcha… i even followed him to his college as i was too bored… and you could see him in my house almost everyday… hey, even chinese new year!! he is just like one of my family members, he in and out of my house ANYTIME, from morning till midnight, and my dog knows him well though!!! sometimes i dont even know that he is actually in my house as he is in my brothers’ room chatting with my brothers… or he is there chatting with my mom… oh yea, so he is my whole family’s friend!!! wakakakkakakaka~~ *feeling so lame suddenly*

and many people like to make fun of both of us… again and again till we are very tired and we dont care anymore… but, here i repeat, WE ARE NOT COUPLE!! but, we are more than a couple!! ooopppsss… no no no, i mean he stands a more important place in my heart… and we CANT be a couple, as things will get miserable and messed up IF the 2 – blur, same personalities, indecisive persons get together, everything will be heading to nowhere!! ahahhahahaa… this is why i have been changing bfs, but not him!! and hopefully we will not do it in the future though…

he knows that i like this pic A LOT, coz ONCE i look SMALLER in size while standing beside him!! he has covered up 30% of me!! kekekekeekek…

here you go, ALL*everything* THE BEST and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

*muacks*

yeah!! i am now 22 years old edi… haha, should i be so proud of it? i wonder…

hmmm… i think i did make a right choice that i decided to come to my so-called 2nd home – CLAYTON!! as i have my dearest cousins here!! they are my ONLY family here… so i always feel more comfy over here!! =)

hahahahaha… and it was so funny that when they brought me the birthday cake with candle lighted up, and the smoke alarm got activated!! ahahahha… and my mom called me on my 3g mobile while my friend, Wings called me on my Digi mobile *thanks wor, a bit surprised that you could remember that* and he didnt know that i already back in melbourne, he was so surprised… at that moment i was so busy answering both phones and also gotta blow candle… hahahahaha… it’s funny though~~

well, i actually really dont have any celebrating mood since few years back, dont know why… i find it is so meaningless edi, and it is just another normal day to me… but for this year, i DID hope for something… but too bad that it didnt turn out my way… so… well… exected lar!! =) at least i met my ASLING jiejie today… not bad~

i have made my birthday wish… and hopefully everything will be better very soon~~

and oh yea… a BIG THANK to ZHANSHEN, he has THIS FUNNY THING, but he didnt give it to me ler… he only set it as his nick, i guess i was too busybody and i went to have a look and i ASSUME that it is for me!! ahahahhahaha… anyway, I LOVE YOU!!

my PRETTY cake!!

jiejie and i…

3 lovely cousins!!

there you go my cousin-in-law, Nhan!! kekekekek

arrggghhhh… martha farkar!! damn angry lar!!!

ladies and gentlemen… again, i twisted my ankle AGAIN!!!!! what the hell!!! why why why…? why is this like that? when can it be recovered? and why is it getting worse and worse…? my godzzzz

i am so sadzzz lar… cant my life be better these days…? all the unlucky things keep happening non-stop… *madzzz*

there was this picture came across my mind when i was on the train today…. it was so warm TO ME…

it happened when i was with X one day, i accidentally knocked my hand on the cupboard and it was so pain that i told X about it… X kept hitting on that stewpid cupboard with hand and scolded it for hurting me… *grinz* hmmm… my daddie and mommie used to do that to those stewpid things that hurt me too in the past while i was still a lil kiddo… and i felt so warm and protected when X did that to me, and there was a SMILE from the bottom of my heart appeared on my face…

*so sweet, thankx*

then, i saw THIS when i was walking on the street, so i bought it… it is SOMEONE SPECIAL~ =)

why why why so many unlucky entries altogether? let me tell you WHY, coz i am now freaking farking super extremely damn UNLUCKY!!! *diuz*

my poor lil foot was about to recover edi, not so pain edi, and at least i could walk FASTER with it edi instead of walking like a orang cacat… BUT BUT BUT… i twisted it AGAIN, yea… the SAME FOOT!! i was holding a bag of rubbish and i was heading to throw it… i twisted it just before the door!! damn!! SO PAIN lar!!

dahhhh~~~~ when can i back to be a NORMAL person!! *arrrghhh* and my mom kept saying that i dont know how to take care of myself, and she said EVERYONE thought that i could… yea man, even me myself thought that too… but too bad, i am disappointing everyone!! i am just a loser… weak… lousy… and i cant go home!! WHEN THE HELL CAN I GO HOME~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!! i told my mom that i need a BABY SITTER~~ wahhahahahahahaha~~ hey i seriously need one ok~~!! or someone please donate a BF to me ar? not a lousy one but one that can take care of me, please… and thankiew…

i got this from my mom while msn-ing with her:

AnnChin says:
please lah Chin Vian Yee...... don't always.... blame this & that lah..... god give u the life is not bad lah.....compare with others less fortunate .....u must know to hold & make use of it "par wor" *means 把握*!!

p/s: am i really complaining too much? telling the truth only wor…

oh well, i am still stucked in this broadbandless life… so BORING!! i am now using a snail-dialup… but well, it’s good though, so that i can sleep early at night!! hahaha… not too bad right…? at least there is SOMETHING good about this house!! lalalalalllalaa~~ oh hey, anyone interested to come over on saturday? we are having a HOUSE WARMING (like we OWN the house, but we dont) at my place… anyone? just tell me IF YOU REALLY coming, ok?

i have finally moved to my new house… and… it is… so… scary… i was so shocked when i first walked into the house, as i hadnt seen it before i moved in!!

the house is so damn old!! maybe like 50 years old, most things are broken, cracked and DIRTY! and super big… it is just like another haunted mansion man!! with all the broken crystal lights hanging on the ceiling, and those stained mirrors here and there, yellowish lights, stains here and there… DAMN!! really couldnt take it at first… i even held my tuition fees to the uni and my return ticket and prepared to go home anytime… i just cried to mommie that i seriously afraid of that house, i was so scared to go to the toilet and shower… and till now i already been sleeping in my housemate’s room for 3 nights… i dont even dare to sleep alone… DAMN!!

but still, i am trying my best to cope with it for at least 6 months… let’s see what will happen, else i will be heading back to my sweet home… my mom has no idea for it but my dad asked me to go back… hahaha, he is afraid that i might get crazy here or maybe will commit suicide…? hmmm… but, in order to make me love my house, i am spending a BOMB to make it look a lil more LOVELY!! feel like renovating the whole damn house only!! and i had to cover the damn mirror facing my bed weik, just imagine, it is so scary to sleep with it!!

but there is one thing in my mind… i really think that there are TOO MANY signals telling me that i shouldnt have come back to melb… at first was all the unlucky things happened in the previous blog… then when i got into my new house, we were locked outside the house… and then i twisted my ankle while crossing the road yesterday, everyone was there looking at me like we were having a mini meeting at the traffic light!! and i didnt give a damn because DAMN FARKING PAINFUL man!! i thought i had lost my foot!! and now i am walking handicaply~~ TA MA DE!! i cant imagine what’s gonna happen in the future again~~!!

i dont even have a phone line at home at the moment!! i cant make calls to mommie!! and i cant online!! *arrrrghhh* and i already missed one week’s lectures and tutorials as i didnt have time to go to uni!! i had been busy for the whole week loading and unloading my stuffs, cleaning, arranging… DUH~

and there were times when i needed accompanions and some comfortings… luckily my dearest cousins always there with me!! *muacks* unlike someone acting like a BIATCH never ever give a damn!!

bless myself… not to be so unlucky anymore, PLEASE… and also to Mayvis, good luck girl, i am here feeling you all the time!!

everything seems so quiet these days… i just cant seem to get myself adapted into a HAPPY environment… hopefully soon i can get back to my normal life after moving into my new home… there will be more people to talk to and merrier…

i used to be very happy chatting online all days and nights non-stop… but now… my brain seems to be so empty and i have no mood to chat so much… i couldnt stand it when it is so quiet and lonely… when i was alone on the way out, i kept thinking of her and my tears falling… damn, i cant do anything, i can only keep myself busy busy busy, stop thinking, stay in a noisy environment and all…

and there is someone that i feel secured with, every moment that i am with someone, it makes me feeling so comfortable and no worries at all… but whenever i am not with someone, i start feeling miserable, lonely, helpless, i even couldnt sleep well without someone… and i miss someone so badly… although someone has no special relationship with me, someone seems so important to me…

from now onwards, i have learnt a lesson, never wait a minute to say ‘I LOVE YOU’ or show how much you care to anyone that you love… i already told my family that i love them… i already told my buddies that i love them… and so… i told someone that i love someone too… =)

I hope that…
Ilaria is living happily in Heaven now…
everyone is staying with their loved ones…
everything will be fine soon…

I LOVE YOU!!

Rest in peace…

it’s a bad news… ilaria is no longer with us anymore… we will love you and miss you… forever…

although we were not that close, i still enjoy being your friend… you were such a cheerful girl, cute, and nice… it’s just too surprised that you chose this way to end up your life… i didnt know what had happened… but i am sure that you were very unhappy till this extent… girl, i respect your decision…

i am regret that i didnt manage to give you a testimonial on friendster, i wanted to but i thought of there was still time for me to do so in the future… but…

Ilaria, you will always be in our hearts, no matter what… your msn will forever be offline from now on… i hope you are happier with the way you are now… *LOVE YA*