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was shocked when someone told me that he’s become gay already… he used to have lots of gfs… it was unbelievable… so i asked him to tell me the truth and all… he even told me not to tell other people and respect him if i was his friend… ok, i thought it was the truth…

i trusted him… because i appreciate him as a friend for being there for me WHENEVER i needed him… he talked to me when i was stressed, telling me not to worry when i am sad, advising me when i had problems, entertained me when i was bored, made me smile when i couldnt find a reason to smile, pampering me like a kid, buying me lolli when i wanted one… i liked him… he called me his princess, guarding me and NEVER LIE TO ME…

but in fact, i found that HE LIED TO ME!! i am sad… i am disappointed… i took so long to make myself trust that he had become gay… but… he… actually has a GIRL FRIEND now… he never wanna tell me till my brother told me that he saw them… then only he said he didnt think that i was so stupid to believe him…

MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~ I HATE YOU!!!

*yeay* i received a CHRISTMAS CARD!!! omg… been ages since my last received a REAL christmas card!! yes, not E-christmas card ok…

anyway…

to WHOM it may concern,

thanks for the card… and it was a SURPRISE, i am serious… i was looking at the envolope thinking… who was it… writing my name in FULL, and who has my address, and whose handwriting was TERRIBLE!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA…

hmmm… i dont like the way you said it… 升华 your head… i rather it to be downgraded again to the way we used to be… maybe to you it’s 升华… but to me… it’s YOU DONT EVEN WANT TO BOTHER ME!!! everytime i wanna talk to you, but you are either not free or… whatsoever reasons they are… or maybe DISTANCE is a problem too…

anyway, at least i am glad that we are still in a good relationship, i guess… or just like what you said… 升华…

oh yea, as what i expected, i quit the receptionist job for the student accommodation job… no way i will work for POTENTIALLY HAUNTED PLACES… grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…

and i have started my work experience with the migration lawyer… it’s fun… and yes i love it… although it’s a FREE LABOUR stuff… at least, the job is fun, and… dont know… i just like it and hoping that it’s a REAL job… not going to fire me after the training… oh well, at least, i am given a chance to get some experience…

besides, i still work for phone stop and smoke zone… damn… i am working almost like 7 days a week…!!! because i am a POoOooOOooooOoR lil girl… =( i need to save up my bond, my rental, my air ticket, my…

hm… maybe my LV and my GUCCI too… =P i still owe myself a GRADUATION PRESENT… man, ages of HARD WORK… finally it’s all DONE and what do i get for myself? a GIFT, obviously!!

and boxing day is coming too… hmmm… discounted things!! shopping list… my WISH LIST!!!

okokokok… back to work… and also back to LYN spamming… *rofl*

yes, i got the migration lawyer’s job too… but sad to know that it’s only INTERNSHIP for 3 weeks part time WITHOUT pay… then later they will decide after my 3 weeks’ performance… i dont know if this is good or bad… what if they con me? haiihzzzz…

and i went for training today at the unicity apartment, the job was good enough, and easy as well… the pay is good too… BUT, managing the apartment, you need to check the rooms all the time to make sure that they are in good conditions… but the problem is… i will have to do it ALONE… like… go to the floor ALONE to check whether it’s clean… go to the room ALONE to check if it’s tidy and no damage… go to the roof top ALONE to check the BBQ area to see if there is rubbish there… i was like… HUHHHHHHHHHHH!!! it’s something like a BUDGET hotel, it’s a student accommodation as well… and it’s OLD… the whole building is just OLD… and… seriously, i am SCARED!!!!!!! i didnt even dare to go to the toilet… damn…!!! the whole apartment is so QUIET, imagine you are walking alone along the walk way… OMG… i really think that i CANT handle it…

but… should i TRY? what if i FAINT while trying? and what if something really happens to me while i try? will my whole life be haunted by this incident? worth it to RISK my life? i have to admit that i am really very haunted by dont know what… ZS, WM, MH, CL, ALICE… can be very sure of that… i think… i think they should understand what i should do…

=(

*yeay* there comes my hope… i went to 2 interviews today, and surprisingly i kinda like both of the jobs… first one was a migration lawyer looking for a migration consultant… second one was a student accomodation looking for a receptionist… but, i still prefer the migration lawyer firm’s job than the student accomodation one… it sounds WAYYYYYYYYY professional and more interesting… =) *pray hard*

but at least, i already got news from the student accomodation manager 15 minutes after the interview, she actually gave me like 5 missed calls on both my phones as i had my phones on silent… she actually told me that the person who interviewed me was very happy with me and asking me to go for training next week… YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

FINALLY, i can get away from retail… there comes my chance… =)

but because of this… i will have to work 9 days in a row… *OMGOMGOMG* because i cant quit any of my current jobs just for the training, IN CASE something’s not right… so i am going for training for 3 days, working for phone stop for 3 days and smoke zone for 1 day… that’s my schedule for NEXT WEEK, and i need to work for phone stop tomorrow and sunday to make up the days off i had while i was sick… so… 9 DAYS IN A ROW… *phew*

now… i can see a lil sunlight coming in… my hope…

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by the way, i think something’s wrong with my previous entry… and made you guys think that… i… erm…

whatever, i was just so depressed again… i had a fight with my mom till she went offline immediately, i had a fight with babybendan because he didnt bring me out after i got all dressed up, i was sad because of my job, i was sad that some of my friends are going back, i was sad that i have so little money but so much to pay…

now, me and my mom already friend back… me and babybendan also baby back… my job got new hope…

BUT STILL… i dont have enough money… and my friends are still going back, i need to find new entertainments on weekends…

well… no story… i have nothing… i am all back to ZERO, or maybe negative…

i am supposed to live in a cave… or an island…

or i shouldnt be alive…

yes, i KO-ed…

basically, i am on a CHOCOLATE DIET recently… yes, i eat chocolate to diet… well, it works for sure… i eat chocolate when i feel hungry and chocolate will keep me feeling full… dont think that you will over eating it because after some time you will feel SICK of it and dont feel like eating anymore… that’s very good…

but the downside is… damn, i dont drink enough of water… that makes me VERY HEATY NOW!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr… i have a sore throat, 3 ulcers, cough, running nose and fever…

erm… i cant blame all on my lovely chocolate, because… i THOUGHT the prawn crackers were so yummilicious looking… and they only cost AUD1.50!! so i bought and i ate it… YUMMY!!!!!!!

next, yean’s place had a BBQ dinner using our CONTRIBUTION *the contribution is contributed by mahjong’s players, everytime you BAO, you have to contribute 20cents into it* and yea, they had yummy prawns, yummy clams, yummy fishes, yummy pork ribs, yummy chicken wings… and i ate them as well…

and now… i am sitting at home typing this entry and i think i will be at home tomorrow too… i cant even talk properly now, i dont think that i can go to work… i am afraid that no customer can understand me… or maybe they will run away when a girl talking with VERY MANLY VOICE…

and i am happy that i can watch TVB happily now… i think i am going to finish whole series of 肥田喜事 by today…

when i told my mom on msn that i was going to watch tvb and didnt want to talk to her… she replied…

AnnChin says:
ma lou…… SLEEP!!!!

. : e R i C C a : . says:
wah very IN ar you

. : e R i C C a : . says:
know how to say MA LOU!!

MALAYSIANS, there is something worth reading…

after reading Drliew’s blog about this article Berdikari, i went to TheAge.com.au to look for the article While Malaysia fiddles, its opportunities are running dry… after that, i clicked on to Michael Backman’s website and found another article about Malaysia again… http://www.michaelbackman.com/Malaysia.html…

i have to admit… he is so right… and malaysians, WAKE UP!!!

WAHLAO!!! BI LO DAMN HI TECH WEIK!!!!!!!!!!!

i was browsing in bi lo today while waiting for babybendan to pick me up after work… and i went to the check out area looking for a queue to line up… suddenly i saw this lil section looking interesting… i went closer to take a look…

OMG!! it’s a DIY cash register!! so cool!! what you do is scan the barcode of your stuffs, then put them into the bags provided, then touch the screen to tell the machine whether you paying by cash or card, then… “ASK FOR ASSISTANCE”… then this lady came over to help me, she moved my stuffs to place on top of a sensor situated UNDER the bag… and then it started to work again!! OOORRRHHHH… i didnt get the sensor working as i thought i didnt need a bag so i didnt put my stuffs into the bag and it didnt get that sensor activated so my checkout process got into trouble!! WOWWWWWWWWWW… isnt it SO DAMN COOL!!! and i continued, i touched the CASH button and paid my money then it gave me back my change too…

OMG OMG OMG OMG… so COOL!!!

but i wonder… if i am paying by credit card… so nobody is going to verify my signature… and… i can commit a credit card fraud?

p/s: i am sorry that i sound like a dumbarse… but seriously, i havent seen this kinda smart checkout before… so i am so out… ishhh…

yes… i even took a picture of it… damn 38… but SO WHAT, I LIKE AR!! and also accidentally took a picture of the HAMSUP uncle at the back who kept looking at me and smiling at me before/in/after BI LO…

i think i might be too innocent… or too dumb to ask such a question… i seriously have no idea what is a relationship… and why does it exist… and what should we do in a relationship…

i also have no idea how and why does a relationship get started… as well as how and why does a relationship last… and also… how and why does a relationship end…

people might just tell me… we love each other, so we are together… we still love each other, so we are still together… and one day, we dont love each other, so we are apart… is it supposed to be so simple?

but… there are also examples that… we dont know IF we love each other, but we are together… we dont know IF we STILL love each other, but we are STILL together… and also… we DONT love each other, but we are STILL together…

so… what is it actually?