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YEAN, I LOVE YOU!!!!

heehehehehe… yean is my coursemate, she is so freaking nice, because she left her group to pair up with me for our assignment… damn, farking nice!! *muacks*

i was actually kinda panic, that i would have to do the GROUP assignment all alone by myself while all other people already in a group of 4!! i was searching high and low for at least ONE group member so that i could do less work… who knows, nobody wants me… *sobsob* =( and suddenly, YEAN so nice, she told me that she would leave her group of 4 people to join me!!! WOW!!! *hugzzzzzzzz* and yea, so now i am trying my best to finish the assignment earlier and i am also doing most of the parts of the assignment… to thank her for joining me lor… *hehehehehe*

well… it’s time to start my revision after the assignment already…

and also, finally i registered myself for IELTS in VICTORIA and very luckily that it’s in MELBOURNE too… thank god man… that i need not to go to freaking NSW, or WA, or QLD to sit for the test… what a waste of time and MONEY for air ticket… i am feeling so lucky, and i was the last 2 candidates for the 8th july’s test… *happie*

good luck~~~~

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—- Pictures update —-

HAHAHAH… sleeping piggie in my piggie pyjamas… *grinz*

my new hairstyle… kekekekekee…

weeeeeeheeeeeeeee… the hoodie couple… =P

the 6 of us had a great time in grampians during easter break… it was fun… a new experience… although i dont like to see the trees, and i dont like natural things… i love that trip, it was so lovely!!! thanks to the group, Sam, WeiSheng, YiLing, Andrea, ShiangYuan and myself. and also thanks Sam for driving all the way… =)

introduing the group…
Sam, YiLing, WeiSheng, Andrea, me, ShiangYuan

the group having fun at the waterfall… but hey, it’s not fun when you have to walk up and down 1km+… it’s freaking tiring… i couldnt actually walk up man, luckily sam walked me up *thankiew* and it was so embarrassing when some aunties were walking faster than me… *ouch*

real couple VS fake couple… hehehehehehehee…

many people think that we look alike… even our BFs… which is very OH-NO!! but then… i kinda think that we look alike also… HAHAHHAHHA… my long lost sister!! =)

*muacks* people…

it’s really scary when you dont have a valid ticket when you are supposed to have one… i got on to a tram after work, and then i realised that i didnt have enough of COINS to buy a ticket although i have enough amount of MONEY as the stupid machine only accepts COINS… i was damn worried… i was worried that inspectors might be somewhere to get me… but i didnt wanna leave the tram as it’s already on the way and it’s middle of nowhere… it’s dark on the street, i couldnt do anything even if i really got down… there was no shop, no people, no light… so the only thing i could do was to stay on the tram and being WORRIED… finally, i couldnt take it anymore, i got down… although it’s somewhere not familiar to me, at least, i knew that’s somewhere NEAR to the city… so i walked on the street, it’s so cold and i was freezing…

walk walk walk… finally i saw arts centre!!!! it’s almost there!!!! and at this moment, i felt like my bladder gonna burst soon… damn!! i had to go to the toilet, i had to walk faster with cold and my poor bladder… YEAY, REACHED!! but… FARK IT MAN, i couldnt find my damn wallet and couldnt get my damn money to put into the damn machine to buy the damn ticket!!! shiatz!!! idiot, i wanna go to the toilet lar!! ishhhhhhhhhhhh… i had to take everything out from my bag and then only i managed to get everything done!! then i walked STRAIGHT to the toilet… finally…

thought of taking the 8pm train… and ma de hell!! it got DELAYED for like 10 minutes!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~~~~~

=(

tomorrow will be a better day… *cheers*

oh well, i dont know how many couple out there actually celebrate their monthly anniversary or some special day like the 10th day, the 100th day, the 143th day, the 999th day… blablabla…

but me, i was taught by my EX that we should celebrate all these lil anniversaries and make them great memories… and so, i thought it’s a must to do so… as i think it’s a great idea though, creating some lil surprises and spice up the relationship at the same time…

sadly, i am seeing a guy who doesnt care about this… he thinks that it’s not important at all… he will only celebrate the YEARLY anniversary and that’s all… *bangwall*

yesterday, he had dinner with his friend but me… i had nothing to eat… i had to go home to eat alone… on the 1st month anniversary! and when i talked to him, he went like ‘oh, was it today?’ *pengsan*

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP~~~~~~~

anyway, i am trying to learn how to give and take… how to accept him for who he is… and also accepting the fact that he is a guy who will never spoil me!! *grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* isnt it sad?

hmmmm… i think i kinda like AND dislike my life lately… *HAHAHHA* sounds lame…

every morning when i wake up at freaking 7am, only one thought comes to my mind… ‘I THINK I AM SICK TODAY‘… the reason why is because, i can continue my sweet sleep IF and ONLY IF, i am sick and need not to wake up to go to work… but, too bad, i am so healthy most of the days… although i have been kinda WEAK lately… i never got sick for more than 3 times in a year last time… but, it’s different now… maybe my body knows that i am now working for an ASIAN BOSS, and i need to be sick to get a day off… *grinz*

but when i am at work, i feel happy… i love my customers… i love my workmates… they are just too fun to be with… time flies… and ONE MORE THING, i have something to hope for when i am at work… what do you think? HOPING TO FINISH WORK LAR OF COURSE!! so that i can go home, rest, and see babyben… hmmm… isnt my life getting more wonderful? i would say YES… at least, it’s a meaningful life that i have hopes, i have likes and dislikes, and i am also doing something more meaningful than sleeping and watching tvb 24/7… i have a feeling that I AM AN ADULT now… =P

another thing is… i am a HAPPY girl…

BECAUSE…

I HAVE PRESENTS… *yumyum*

my PINKIE lil Mr. Greedy… thankx to babyben… *muacks*

my new OROTON purse… thankx to teri jiejie… *hugz*

it’s really true that different people have their very own way of thinkings and what they want… and it’s damn farking hard when you are in between of them, dont know what to do… that is driving me nuts!!!

there are always some people that are important in life… such as family, friends, partner… as well as some people that are always be with you, like housemates… and when these people want you to do DIFFERENT things at the SAME time, you know that you are in trouble!! i believe there wont be a solution that you can make everyone happy… you have to make them both happy and you yourself suffering from both pains, or you will have to make them both upset, or you shall just ignore…

beside that, you might have to do something which you really hate to do… MEASURING who is more important… take 1 and leave 1… i really dont want to… being a piscean, it’s a big project for me to make a decision, even as small as deciding what to eat for lunch… and now, i am trapped in this idiot problem solving thingie… *madness*

maybe… i should live in an isolated island… i have problem dealing with people…

damn man… i am sick again!! *grrrrrrrrrrrr* woke up with gastric… thought of rest for a while then it would be ok, so then i called up my boss to tell him that i would be there late… who knows… later on i had fever and diarrhoea too… *wtf* couldnt go to work lor… aissskkkzzzz…

i spent my day sleeping on the bed rolled up like a prawn… i couldnt even pull my body straight because of the gastric… *grrrrrrrrrrr*

DAMN!! why these days always sick one!! *deng* all the while i had been very healthy one wor… =( MAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~ i wanna go home!! i want my mommie!!!!! *sobsob*

hmmmm… dont know why, i dont like to use this term BOYFRIEND for my own boy… since my very first boy… i prefer to refer him as MY BOY than MY BOYFRIEND… or what i use most of the time is just MY FRIEND… dont ask me why, i just dont like to so wanna mention it to everyone… they will know when they are meant to know it…

maybe i FOUND that… bad things happen when i wanna make any relationship work… just like now… it has just started… and bad things just happened in the house, people are unhappy… and… sometimes, i just cant stop telling myself that these changes are happening because of HIM… and… i also cant stop losing trust in him… been asking myself, was that a wrong decision that i had made… oh well… let’s see how things go…

anyway, it was a boring working day again… and thus, the bored ericca did something stupid again… this time, it’s bunnie + chickie on my head… HAHHAHAHAHAHA… yea, i enjoy being a joker… *whatever* and i finished work at 2pm… finally, really FINALLY one day that i can have a good walk on chapel st… usually i start work when the shops are still closed and finish work when the shops are already closed too!! *sadzzz* but today i did a good shopping though… bought myself some yummilicious tops… and also some easter eggs and bunnies for the coming easter… i spent more than 100bucks in just 2 hours time buying small lil cheapo things… and so, i had so much to carry… luckily that i need not to carry them all the way home… i had HIM to pick me up… =)

the joker of the day… =P

my boy and me =)

been wondering… where and when is MY time now… i dont even have enough time to chat on msn with my mom… i dont even have enough time to COMMUNICATE with my housemates… i dont even have time for myself to blog, to do my very own things… 80% of my time has been dedicated to Better Choice and Benedict Lim…

but, maybe this is good too… as in… i dont have much time to do nonsense things, waste money… and most importantly a healthier lifestyle i am having now… i sleep earlier compared to the OLD ME, just because that i need to wake up early at dumb ass 7am to get ready to go to work at 9am… and of course, i dont have much energy to stay up late after one whole day of 10 freaking hours of work too…

the new OWNERS of ericca…

Better Choice

Benedict Lim

i am confused… RELATIONSHIP, i want, i dont want… i dont know whether i want it or not… wanting it will spoil my plan, will change my lifestyle… i am actually kinda happy with my single lifestyle… free and easy… at least, i can make any decision considering one person less… no need to worry about one more person’s feeling… sounds not bad huh…

MAYBE, it’s good to have a companion… have someone to be with, hugs and kisses… i mean, a casual one, without commitment might be good… but, this is being really selfish when you are the one who wanna go casual while the other party wants a serious relationship…

i think, i am tired of commitment, tired of expectations, tired of disappointments, tired of relationship.

confusion… man… this is tough…