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anyone who knows this person, LET ME KNOW!!

another late night working on assignment… hmmm… there is this picture that i really LAUGHED out and said WHAT THE FARK when i first saw it today… the weird thing is, i dont even know the person who did it… the only thing i know is that he/she is from LYN… but i dont know him/her in person, not even gender and name… hahahaha…

anyway, thankx yea… it’s cute… =)

cutely done by Titan_GigAs…

[UPDATE]

this FRIEND here doesnt wanna reveal himself/herself…

was home alone just now… so decided to make a call to mommie for a chat… but EXPECTEDLY… our conversation became a war…

all the time, yes, i really mean it ALL THE TIME… we cant get a smooth and happy conversation whenever it touches my STUDIES… often get into the blaming-each-other-situation… yes, i really blame her for letting me to come over… and i really blame her for not letting me to go back to continue it since i really dont like to be here… but she claims that i should appreciate my opportunity being here… NEVER ENDING BLAMING…

i dont know… it’s not that i dont wanna study, it’s not that i dont wanna graduate… please man… i think i hate studying than anyone else… and i have been trying harder and harder to LOVE my course, to communicate with my course, to understand my course… but then, i just freaking dont get a thing!! i just cant make it better…

i used to be quite confident in myself, i used to tell myself that i could do it… but… after so many falls, been failing for like… *uncountable times*… i really have no guts to hope for something good… i have no confidence anymore… in my mind, i only know that i am a failure, i will never ever get things right…

this semester, is a very very important semester to me… i seriously cannot afford to fail anymore!! i really dare not to imagine what will happen to me if i really fail again…

all these sleepless nights been bothering me too often… i try to get my self to sleep when i feel tired… but once i am on the bed, i will start thinking of how to do the assignments, how to answer the exam questions, how to prepare for the papers, how to study better, how to memorise easier, how to this and how to that… besides, thinking of the time and money that i have spent, thinking of the disappointments that i have brought to everyone, thinking of my shittie future… till i am too stressed to sleep, and i will get up to on my lights… open my book… continue studying or working on it again…

i am just feeling so EMPTY… so HOPELESS… so HELPLESS… so LIFELESS… where the fark is my future… where the hell is my happiness…

finally, after so long… probably many already forgotten the existence of this someone… and now i am refreshing everyone’s mind out there… that… i already deleted and blocked someone few days ago… finally i am letting go, letting it to be history, and someone will be in my PAST…

i guess, many will say ‘FINALLY’ and feel happy for me, right? hahaha… i think ZhanShen will be the first one to *hooray* for me… and also my QS korkor… and also… DarDar, thankx for being understanding, you know my story =)

but, please forgive me for not cleaning the chat logs and smses YET… give me more time… i will do it, for sure… i guess, they make no harm to me, right? yea…

hmmm… found this piano version of La La La Love Song, can really relax my mind… it’s very good!! i am listening to it when studying… =) hopefully that it will work wonder on me…

ma de you so many better things to be but dont wanna be, BE A THIEF pulak!! duh~!!!

when i came home from uni, robin told me there was a thief TRYING to break into his room through his window… my godz, this thief really daring… robin was actually in his room SINGING song also the dumb thief not scared man!! the thief saw him and he ran away… the police came in 5 mins *efficient-nye* but found nothing… iiissshh… *pandai-nye* BOTH OF US DAMN SCARED NOW!!

i think this thief came 3 times today… first time was he broke the small door where we had blocked it with CEMENT + STONE… i heard the sound but i didnt think of that door, so i didnt do anything… next, he came again and rang the doorbell while robin was home alone and was in the shower at that moment… and also the car already in workshop, no car at home, so he thought that nobody at home and went ACTION!! but too bad, his 6th sense was wrong…

oh well… i did a bit of revision in library today though… and… what would you expect from cam-whore-in-the-library leh?

CAM WHORING lar of coz!!!

fuhwah… a cam whore studying in cubicle…

then i ACCIDENTALLY found this pic in my phone…

an alcohol-TOMATOED-cam-whore cam whoring in the K toilet…

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today start puasa-ing edi!! yes ar!! i also wanna puasa!! =P

the exam time table already out… and i am worried… really starting to worry about how am i going to cope with that… 4 exams in 7 days… my godz… 10th, 11th, 15th and 16th of november… BAH~~~ this is killing me man…

and then after that i will need to wait till january then only my summer course starting at that time… so i will be having a SHORT holiday in between… 1.5 months… thought of going back to KL for a short break… to celebrate Xmas and all… but then… 2nd thought… it’s still better to go back after my summer course which will be in mid of feb!! *yeay* praying that i finally can go back to celebrate my birthday in KL after 2 dumb arse years…

PRAY PRAY PRAY
STARDEE STARDEE STARDEE
i dont wanna stay here any longer…!!!

oh no~~ what’s wrong with me… what’s wrong with my yesterday’s japanese lunch… it can last me until now!! already 28 hours and i dont feel HUNGRY!! ma de hell~~~ what is wrong man!! die lor this time… i feel like wanna eat something, but it’s wrong to eat when you are not hungry… BUT HOW COME I AM NOT HUNGRY? this is a bit of ridiculous… my godzz…

usually i feel hungry every 6-8 hours… now… already 28 hours… madness… but… i am feeling dizzy, my brain is like floating edi and my eyes cant concentrate at ONE POINT… does this mean that my stomach is DEAD? awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww…

i dont care… i am going to eat… duh~~

this is so damn freaking suckie man!! STOP THAT!! been telling myself again and again, stop doing that!! but… argggh… just cant help… *duh*

finally went out to have a PROPER meal for lunch this afternoon, went to have japanese food… kinda yummie though… but then super fattening with tempura, with teriyaki chicken, with fried chicken pieces, with fried dumplings, with some rice!! which is why i am not going to have DINNER!! waakakakakaka… even thought of going for a swim to burn out all the stewpid calories… but… when we were almost ready to go at 730pm and we realised that the swimming pool closing at 745pm… *baka*

thus, we stayed at home to do some DRY SWIM… wakakakkaa… YES!! MAHJONG!! ahhahahahaha… at least, i was exercising my FINGERS and HANDS, i bet they are now A LIL SLIMMER… damn lame… and i felt so bad while playing mahjong and also thinking of my assignment!! my BLARDEE tax law assignment is killing me… i think it’s not the assignment itself but the freaking 34 pages of tax case that i have to read before i can start working on it!! i just cant have that kinda patient to read all of them… *help* BUT I HAVE TO!!

now, i am ready to READ!! but i am feeling sleepy… NO NO NO!! i have to read before i can go to bed tonight!! I PROMISE!! *good luck*

this is what happens when i HAVE TO STARDEE… especially when my dardar is lost in nowhere, not studying together with me…

take a pic before going to study ok…

HUH~ i still dowan to study ar… *blek*

ZhanShen, my bestest buddy is leaving tonight to Sunderland, UK… although i am already damn far enough to be unable to send him off at KLIA, i still feel the sad… not for tonight… but for the future…

i can see my future when i am back in kl without the existence of zs… it will be so damn dull without fun… i can no longer give a call to zs telling him that i am hungry and let’s go to eat something… i can no longer call him and telling that i am bored and let’s do something… i can no longer having the fun making cookies in the kitchen with zs… i can no longer bringing my 2 brothers out together with zs pretending that we are one family… i can no longer going out with zs and people start asking me whether he is my bf… and also not to forget my lonely birthday without zs celebrating together with me as our birthdays only 1 day in difference…

aiiissskkkzzz… for the first day i landed on melb land, i wanted to go home, i wanted to go back to my family’s side and also i wanted to go back to see my buddies everyday… i missed them so much… but then… i told myself that i would be back soon to be with them again!! after a year, i went back for my summer holiday and it was freaking so much hell lots of fun that we almost practically went out everyday and night… our K sessions, shopping sessions, lunch and dinner sessions, yumcha sessions, gossiping sessions… everything… i basically rejected most of the invitations by other people, giving lame excuses and all, as i didnt feel like going out with other people beside them… and i find it very funny as i didnt even feel a LIL of boring seeing the same people all the time, in fact i was damn happy…

back to melb… also waiting for another meeting up with them again in the summer… but then too bad… i had to do summer course this year in melb and not be able to go back… but then i thought that i could go back right after my summer course!! but but but… haiihzzz… MY ZHANSHEN IS GONE EDI LAR… *sobsob* then sooner or later that BUGGER WHEIMENG also leaving edi lar!! *although he is not very important lar =P* still!!! all gone when i am back!! ma de!! not to say all!! still got 50% left lar… but that zeno is always busy with his 1-YEAR-1-GF while that mayvis is forever busy with BREAKING UP with the SAME BF… *arrrgghhh*

POOR ERICCA HAS NO FRIEND EDI~~~

aiskzzz… anyway, no matter what, i believe that they will still come back to me… SOON… prolly in 2 years? 3 years? or 5 years? we will still be back in a gang!! remember what’s our DREAM CAFE is…

zhanshen, be good ok… good luck!! see ya soon!! *muacks*

They are my non-current assets!!!

hmmm… for some reason, i have shown my mommie one same thing for 3 times and she still managed to see WRONGLY and thus she got the same error for 3 times… and finally she found that she actually missed out ONE letter “L”… so then the war started…

. : e R i C C a : . * 倒数3个月 – StarDee + DieT * lele the lele is the lele lele… says:
you cock eye ar!!!

AnnChin says:
ok ………….. *show smiling emoticon*

PUHLEASE… can anyone tell me how old is my mommie ar…?