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Go die CARBO!! anti anti anti!!

a new week gonna start with a new way of dieting… kekekkeke… nomore porridge and bread diet this week onwards… and today onwards, i am going to start my anti-carbo diet…!! erm… maybe sometimes it’s hard to have zero-carbo… but trying to avoid the main carbo food!!

i went to coles just now, to stock up MEATS and muesli bars…

this is going to last for a week and see how it goes… kekekekeke~~

i think i need to think what’s next plan edi… probably trying out this Mr. SNSK’s idea –> Fruit Porridge… he actually suggested strawberry porridge… hey, i think it’s gonna be NOT BAD though!! i will try it out!! *yumyum*

MA DE!! just finished watching this korean series… damn blardee touching weik!! where the hell on earth got such PERFECT guy one!! aiissskkzzz…

the gf also found dead at the guy’s graveyard… she wanted to die beside him… *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

so saddening ending…

and i am typing this entry with all the tissue papers surrounding me… but seriously, it worth my tears… =)

SORRY, I LOVE YOU…

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww…
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…
yessssssssssssssssssssssss…
babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy…

I’m SO SO SO SO Satisfied… =)

no… this is not a PORNO entry, and i dont mean that i am sexually satisfied… but i am just so damn satisfied with my SLEEP!! yes man!! finally i can sleep sleep sleep till i wake up automatically with satisfaction…

it’s already a week that i woken up by alarm as i had to wake up for classes or for something… woken up by door bell as some idiots wanted to come in…

hmmmm… i feel so good today!! =)
i am feeling so damn happy now…
maybe someone can punch me on my face and i will still smile at him/her…

lallalalalallalalalaaaaaaaaaa~~~

getting a satisfying good sleep is as hard as getting a satisfying good BF *blek* and they come by themselves, you cant force them, you cant look for them, you cant get them using money, you cant get them even if you study hard or work hard… they are so precious… so… treasure them when you have found them… i havent found my satisfying bf yet, so i am going to have a GOOD GREAT DAY today as i have got my SATISFYING GOOD SLEEP!!! *muacks*

[reminder]: i’m not a psycho…

while i was eating my yummie yummie chicken porridge *oh yea, chicken porridge AGAIN* and watching this korean series “Sorry, I Love You”… my mom sent me a msn message…

AnnChin says:
hello morning………

. : e R i C C a : . * 倒数3个月 – StarDee + DieT * says:
wah… finally back at work, your boss sure miss you a lot…

AnnChin says:
yes yes…just come b acak fr his room…….kidding

. : e R i C C a : . * 倒数3个月 – StarDee + DieT * says:
not funny

well well well… the first part of her reply sounds NORMAL, there is nothing wrong with an employee back from employer’s room…

but but but… what is the “KIDDING” part doing over there? does it represent that the earlier message SUPPOSED to be funny/ a joke? or somehow… does it sound like a “DIRTY JOKE”? kinky eh?

hahahahhahaha… i think my mom’s brain is now a bit of you-know after some sickness attack… =)

one down this afternoon edi, it was AFA test, worth 20%… well… i think… MAYBE can pass… but maybe not also!! oh well, since the lecturer said need not to worry, failing is very normal as MAJORITY will fail… *WTF* so if i fail, doesnt mean that i am stupid!! =P

and there is another one tomorrow…!! CA test!! also worth 20%… baka!! let’s see, a repeating subject, hopefully can do well… *praypraypray*

oh well, after so many days of my diet plan… i can feel that my newly bought jeans A BIT loose edi wor… hmmm… can go to change for a smaller size ar? =P but then… dont know whether this dieting way is good or bad… if… something bad is gonna happen… i think i deserve it… aisskkkzzzz… if i die edi… please ask UU not to close down this site and let it live on on behalf of me… and dont cry for me yea people… =)

[additional]
there was this embarrassing moment in the test yesterday… the lecturer asked us to write HER NAME on the test paper, then i went like OH SHIT! what’s HER NAME man… and i was hoping that she would tell us… but no… till the end of the test, i handed in my test and she didnt see her name on my test paper and she asked me to do so again “put my name on it”… arrrrrrrrrrgghhhh… i felt so bad!! so i had to ask her… “what is your name” wahlao… i think her reaction was SO SHOCKED… hahahaha… and she must be thinking WHAT A STUDENT!! and i might get a ZERO for that test!! aiskzz… please forgive me Ms NINA!! ahhahahaha… she actually answered me her name but i even asked her HOW TO SPELL IT!! *OH MY GODZZZZ* i think me myself and i cant forgive this STUDENT though!!!! ishhh…

Hey Hoh~~!! mommie is fine now!! she didnt go for any operation though, just by eating some medicines… which is good!! finally she is back at home~~ which is good also, so that i can call her cheaper!! wakakkakakakaka… calling landline is cheaper than calling mobile though~

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my side, how come i am still like a PIG while i already eat like an ANT…? *which means my size still BIG while i eat very little* and i do some LIL exercise too!! iiiisssshhhh… does this mean that i am not supposed to go on diet…? as i am already meant to be FATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT since the first second i landed on this earth…? deng deng deng deng… it really sounds like i still dont lose weight even only drinking WATER!! and thus this proves me right by saying –> water is fattening!! =P

okokok… accept the truth lar!! i can never be a non-fat-pig, in fact, there is no SKINNY PIG in the world… well well well… and i dont mind people calling me a FEI JU *fat pig* or a FEI POH *fat lady*… but… not any other living things… especially FEI H@I *fat crab*!!!

a tiring sunday… woke up early at 11am *so early* today just to get myself prepared to Brandsmart to do some shopping… it’s not a short trip, alice and i took 1+ hour to reach there! i was hoping to get something nice, especially nice HEELS!!!

but too bad… *haiihzz* but at last, i bought a SUPER CHEAP bag from esprit!! ahahhaha… well, maybe it’s not very useful as it’s a small one, and it’s kinda fragile, must handle with care… but still worth it for its price man!! its original price was 10bucks, after 50% discount became 5bucks, then today was the fathers’ day special additional 20%… in conclusion, i got this bag for only 4bucks!! wakkakakakakaka… alice got a bigger one though, a nicer color, AQUA… but only the big one =( hers also very cheap!! from 30 -> 15 -> 12!!!

my dearly cousins invited me to have yummie dinner in clayton… got lamb chops wor… *saliva dripping* but then… haiihzz… dowan lar, better be a good girl for few weeks first lar… at least, be consistent on my diet plan!! cousins, i will be back for the lamb chops SOON!!!! wait for me!!!!

my new pinkie bag…

well, mom is alright… =) but then she kept complaining about her ROOM, she said the other room mates and friends very noisy!!! but then she deserved it!! *evil* i was kinda surprised when she told me that she was in ASSUNTA hospital, i went like WHY DID YOU GO THERE!! she told me the doctor is in this hospital, so no choice!! bahhhh~~~~ assunta doesnt have a good image in my mind, kinda dodgy… and somemore she pandai pandai staying in a room sharing with 3 other people… i asked her why dont stay in a private room, she said she scared to sleep alone… *wakkakakakak* i said i wanna go back to sleep with her but she said no need… *dengz* well… auntie Ann, now you know that you have made 2 wrong decisions… 1st one is staying in Assunta, 2nd is staying with so many people… aiiissskkkzzz…

YEAY!! so happy that i finally went to shopping today!! and yes i bought something!! YEAY!! i bought a pair of new jeans!! it’s kinda a good bargain, discounted 30% so the price reduced from 120 to 90!! and i told my mom about it, immediately she went on doing her maths and said RM270!! somemore not some well known brand, but same price as Levis… hahahahhaa… too bad lar, already bought~ *grinz* and also a CHEAP *which is REALLY DAMN BLARDEE CHEAP* TOP, got it for 15bucks!! was 30bucks, 50% discount!!

and i bought a SECRET WEAPON to LOSE WEIGHT!! wakkakakakkaka… this is a secret weapon… so i will remain its secretive… wakkakakakakka… =P let’s wait for the result…

i have been searching up and down for some NICE and COMFORTABLE heels… went to nine west, but… none that i was interested in… *arrgghhh* stressed again… I DONT CARE!!! i want a pair of new HEELS!!

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thankx to iinet’s iinetphone, i am making CHEAP CALLS!! its VOIP allows me to make calls using my comp instead of telephone!! just like using SKYPE!! and it’s only 9cents/min to call msian mobile and 5cents/min to call msian landline!! i have been making so many calls edi since last night~~ ahahha… feeling damn excited… called stupid teo WJ for more than an hour… called my mom for more than half an hour… then called this called that… so happy!!! but… there is one big problem… its auto disconnection after 10mins… imagine i have been recalling after every 10mins… *irritating!!* but still… cheap call rates!! =)

was shocked when i got this call from my cousin telling me that my mom was in the hospital… just a second later, my eyes rolling with tears, i tried to calm down, and since she told me that NOT-SOMETHING-SERIOUS… i tried to calm down before making a phone call to mommie… i couldnt… i took a few minutes crying before calling… finally, i braved myself to pick up the phone… my hand was shivering while dialing… trying to stay calm… wiping off the tears… hoping that everything’s fine…

yes, mommie answered the call and i pretended that i knew nothing and asked her where was she… she replied “in the hospital” and i asked why, she answered “to sleep”… *WTF* she still could joke at this moment… this lady is… TERRIBLE!!!

i actually called home yesterday and knew that she was sick and she didnt online her msn today, so i expected that she was still sick so resting at home and thinking of calling her tonight maybe… but who knows… already SLEEPING in the hospital… *arrgghhh* and she MIGHT need to go for some operation… i kept asking her if she was afraid, she said nothing to be afraid of *acting brave huh* and she also said “operation mar operation lar”… fuhhhh… i have no freaking idea whether she was just PRETENDING to be no fear or just trying not to make me worry…

and i really thought of going back tonight to accompany her in the hospital since she was alone… and i have no classes for 3 days so i thought maybe i could just go home for 3 days and then come back after that… but she refused to let me back… and she was LAUGHING and asking me not to make her laugh… *WTF* but i really feeling damn bad, i feeling so left out, i cant see what’s going, i dont feel like i am a part of the family, i cant do anything at all…

THIS IS ALSO THE REASON WHY I DONT LIKE TO STAY HERE ANYMORE!!!

bahhhhhhhhh… well, since mommie said nothing to worry and since that nobody’s there with her, so i ASSUME it’s really not that serious… and let’s pray that she will be fine soon, VERY SOON…

today’s also popo’s birthday, will call her up and talk more about it…

aiskkzz… i am in trouble again!! how come i have this kinda mood one ar… like PMS only… *fark* i feel so depressed again!!! bah~~~

i have no mood again!!

i wanna eat, but i dont know what i wanna eat… pasta? no. rice? no. noodles? no. steaks, lamb chops, thai food? YES!! but where? no one… THEN?

i wanna study, but i dont know where to start from… AFA? no. AMA? no. TL? no. CA? no. THEN?

i wanna do something, but i dont know what to do… assignments? no. clubbing? no. K? no. sleeping? no. chatting? no. THEN?

i wanna go somewhere, but i dont know where to go… city? no. footscray? no. clayton? no. KL? YES!! but i cant…

i wanna go shopping to buy something, but i dont know what to buy… clothes? no. accessories? no. shoes? no. bags? no. THEN?

i feel like doing all these things, i would love to!! i am serious!! BUT… i dont know what exactly i want…

damn it!! what’s wrong man!!

it’s just like i told my friend that… i feel like getting a bf… so that someone could calm me down, could pamper me… blablabla… but then I DONT WANT A BF!! ahahahha… sounds ridiculous right!! it’s like… yea, i NEED one to make me happy, to make me feel loved… but i just dont want it!! i dont want to commit… i am not ready to commit…

i am just another psycho fella… i think…

i think none can understand me, as i dont even know what i want, dont ask me… i will just reply you with ‘I DONT KNOW’

i think i just wanna live with myself ALL ALONE!! not talking to anyone, not doing anything, not going anywhere… so then i can be myself!! that’s me!! I DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING!! bahhhhhhhh~~~

living in a SOCIETY is saddening… i am tired of doing something that i dont feel like doing but i HAVE TO DO!! have to talk, when i dont feel like… have to smile, when i dont feel like… have to act happy, when i am not… ishhhh…

it’s MERDEKA!! and why is everyone acting so excited? are they really happy with it…? oh well, i dont feel A SINGLE THING!! it’s just another boring day that i have to live on… why is everyone screaming there for merdeka? really that interesting huh? really that happy eh? i cant feel it…

i have no feeling for ANYTHING!!!

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haiihzz… what an emo + psycho entry… guess none can undestand, including myself…