我恨你…
我恨你…
我恨你…
我恨死你!!!!!!!!!!
你有什么值得我为你而做吗?
你值得我以泪洗脸吗?
你值得我默默地等吗?
你根本不值得我为你所做的一切一切…
终於, 我明白了什么是”心灰意冷”, 已经无力以对…
我更清楚什么是”浪费”, 因为你不曾珍惜…
也感受到”透不过气”, 真的呼吸困难…
但是, 我就是不懂…
为….. 什….. 么….. 我….. 还….. 是….. 放….. 不….. 下….. ?
因为你, 我的生活变得…
乱七八糟…
思绪混乱…
心不在焉…
我不能再继续了… *headache, cry and take a rest*
依然是朋友
歌手:宇恒 专辑:宇宙永恒 happy day
情人节的前一天他离开你身边
只剩下你无止境的想念
那一夜我陪着你你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么除了我自己没人懂
可是你你怎么说你知道后是不是从此避开我 oh
我一样难过多希望我们不曾相识过
才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭不再难过我们还有好大好大的天空
故事的最后我们都不曾失去过甚么
我们依然是朋友
alright, it might be a lil late posting this up as this song has already been very HIT for quite some time… i used to LIKE this song before… and now i am IN LOVE with it!! i keep it playing in my winamp all the time and also singing along with the lyric saved in my Word…
hmmm… why am i so loving it? i dont usually love a song because of IT IS NICE, fullstop. i love it bacause i can FEEL the song… it is communicating with my heart, it reads my mind… of course, not a full story of mine, but it somehow a partial of my story =)
Case 1:
a man, who is the only SON in the family and of coz his parents would like him to get married… but, he is already in his mid age and still doesnt wanna get married and he feels very annoyed when his parents, siblings keep asking him to get married… he keeps saying that he is very sad and he doesnt wanna be forced to do something that he doesnt like to do… and he thinks that it’s not time yet…
then, the parents and siblings are angry, disappointed, sad coz of this…
what would you do is you are the man? and what would you do if you are one of the the family members?
Case 2:
what’s the difference between:
i) A be with B ONLY if they can be forever…
ii) A be with B and doesnt care whether permenant or temporary…
iii) A only wanna be with B for the every next minute…
thankx god!! finally i am having my bigpond with me, i am no longer broandbandless!! yea yea yea!! and i am now using wireless too!! so great!! fark that dial up!! *go away*
i had bad gastric last night whole night and i couldnt sleep well!! so painful, i kept rolling here and there!! shiat!! and i told my mom about it… she is like asking about my foot every single day… and please lar… not much different can it make from a day to a day!! and she asked me to LEARN how to take care of myself… and i told her that i FAILED this subject edi… hahahaha… damn hard weik!!!
specially dedicated to this 1-day-younger-brother of mine, but he has always been a big brother aka best friend to me… my 25% of friends, meaning VERY VERY important!! thus, I LOVE YOU!!
he is caring, friendly, funny, stupid, noisy, shittie, farked up, smart, hardworking, lame, kind, generous, romantic, cool, tall, huggable, fierce, cute… *list goes on* he has so many goods and bads, and i dont like him but i like him too *what the fark* ahahahahaha…
yea, that’s true, i used to hate him like MADZ!! till the stage that i think… we didnt talk to each other for more than half a year? i didnt even wanna take a glance of him!! even nowadays i dislike him sometimes… still i love him and like him most of the time till we could hangout everyday and night and never feel bored when i was back in kl… we went shopping, eat, play, club, yumcha… i even followed him to his college as i was too bored… and you could see him in my house almost everyday… hey, even chinese new year!! he is just like one of my family members, he in and out of my house ANYTIME, from morning till midnight, and my dog knows him well though!!! sometimes i dont even know that he is actually in my house as he is in my brothers’ room chatting with my brothers… or he is there chatting with my mom… oh yea, so he is my whole family’s friend!!! wakakakkakakaka~~ *feeling so lame suddenly*
and many people like to make fun of both of us… again and again till we are very tired and we dont care anymore… but, here i repeat, WE ARE NOT COUPLE!! but, we are more than a couple!! ooopppsss… no no no, i mean he stands a more important place in my heart… and we CANT be a couple, as things will get miserable and messed up IF the 2 – blur, same personalities, indecisive persons get together, everything will be heading to nowhere!! ahahhahahaa… this is why i have been changing bfs, but not him!! and hopefully we will not do it in the future though…
he knows that i like this pic A LOT, coz ONCE i look SMALLER in size while standing beside him!! he has covered up 30% of me!! kekekekeekek…
here you go, ALL*everything* THE BEST and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
*muacks*
yeah!! i am now 22 years old edi… haha, should i be so proud of it? i wonder…
hmmm… i think i did make a right choice that i decided to come to my so-called 2nd home – CLAYTON!! as i have my dearest cousins here!! they are my ONLY family here… so i always feel more comfy over here!! =)
hahahahaha… and it was so funny that when they brought me the birthday cake with candle lighted up, and the smoke alarm got activated!! ahahahha… and my mom called me on my 3g mobile while my friend, Wings called me on my Digi mobile *thanks wor, a bit surprised that you could remember that* and he didnt know that i already back in melbourne, he was so surprised… at that moment i was so busy answering both phones and also gotta blow candle… hahahahaha… it’s funny though~~
well, i actually really dont have any celebrating mood since few years back, dont know why… i find it is so meaningless edi, and it is just another normal day to me… but for this year, i DID hope for something… but too bad that it didnt turn out my way… so… well… exected lar!! =) at least i met my ASLING jiejie today… not bad~
i have made my birthday wish… and hopefully everything will be better very soon~~
and oh yea… a BIG THANK to ZHANSHEN, he has THIS FUNNY THING, but he didnt give it to me ler… he only set it as his nick, i guess i was too busybody and i went to have a look and i ASSUME that it is for me!! ahahahhahaha… anyway, I LOVE YOU!!
my PRETTY cake!!
jiejie and i…
3 lovely cousins!!
there you go my cousin-in-law, Nhan!! kekekekek
arrggghhhh… martha farkar!! damn angry lar!!!
ladies and gentlemen… again, i twisted my ankle AGAIN!!!!! what the hell!!! why why why…? why is this like that? when can it be recovered? and why is it getting worse and worse…? my godzzzz
i am so sadzzz lar… cant my life be better these days…? all the unlucky things keep happening non-stop… *madzzz*
there was this picture came across my mind when i was on the train today…. it was so warm TO ME…
it happened when i was with X one day, i accidentally knocked my hand on the cupboard and it was so pain that i told X about it… X kept hitting on that stewpid cupboard with hand and scolded it for hurting me… *grinz* hmmm… my daddie and mommie used to do that to those stewpid things that hurt me too in the past while i was still a lil kiddo… and i felt so warm and protected when X did that to me, and there was a SMILE from the bottom of my heart appeared on my face…
*so sweet, thankx*
then, i saw THIS when i was walking on the street, so i bought it… it is SOMEONE SPECIAL~ =)
why why why so many unlucky entries altogether? let me tell you WHY, coz i am now freaking farking super extremely damn UNLUCKY!!! *diuz*
my poor lil foot was about to recover edi, not so pain edi, and at least i could walk FASTER with it edi instead of walking like a orang cacat… BUT BUT BUT… i twisted it AGAIN, yea… the SAME FOOT!! i was holding a bag of rubbish and i was heading to throw it… i twisted it just before the door!! damn!! SO PAIN lar!!
dahhhh~~~~ when can i back to be a NORMAL person!! *arrrghhh* and my mom kept saying that i dont know how to take care of myself, and she said EVERYONE thought that i could… yea man, even me myself thought that too… but too bad, i am disappointing everyone!! i am just a loser… weak… lousy… and i cant go home!! WHEN THE HELL CAN I GO HOME~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!! i told my mom that i need a BABY SITTER~~ wahhahahahahahaha~~ hey i seriously need one ok~~!! or someone please donate a BF to me ar? not a lousy one but one that can take care of me, please… and thankiew…
i got this from my mom while msn-ing with her:
AnnChin says:
please lah Chin Vian Yee...... don't always.... blame this & that lah..... god give u the life is not bad lah.....compare with others less fortunate .....u must know to hold & make use of it "par wor" *means 把握*!!
p/s: am i really complaining too much? telling the truth only wor…
oh well, i am still stucked in this broadbandless life… so BORING!! i am now using a snail-dialup… but well, it’s good though, so that i can sleep early at night!! hahaha… not too bad right…? at least there is SOMETHING good about this house!! lalalalalllalaa~~ oh hey, anyone interested to come over on saturday? we are having a HOUSE WARMING (like we OWN the house, but we dont) at my place… anyone? just tell me IF YOU REALLY coming, ok?
i have finally moved to my new house… and… it is… so… scary… i was so shocked when i first walked into the house, as i hadnt seen it before i moved in!!
the house is so damn old!! maybe like 50 years old, most things are broken, cracked and DIRTY! and super big… it is just like another haunted mansion man!! with all the broken crystal lights hanging on the ceiling, and those stained mirrors here and there, yellowish lights, stains here and there… DAMN!! really couldnt take it at first… i even held my tuition fees to the uni and my return ticket and prepared to go home anytime… i just cried to mommie that i seriously afraid of that house, i was so scared to go to the toilet and shower… and till now i already been sleeping in my housemate’s room for 3 nights… i dont even dare to sleep alone… DAMN!!
but still, i am trying my best to cope with it for at least 6 months… let’s see what will happen, else i will be heading back to my sweet home… my mom has no idea for it but my dad asked me to go back… hahaha, he is afraid that i might get crazy here or maybe will commit suicide…? hmmm… but, in order to make me love my house, i am spending a BOMB to make it look a lil more LOVELY!! feel like renovating the whole damn house only!! and i had to cover the damn mirror facing my bed weik, just imagine, it is so scary to sleep with it!!
but there is one thing in my mind… i really think that there are TOO MANY signals telling me that i shouldnt have come back to melb… at first was all the unlucky things happened in the previous blog… then when i got into my new house, we were locked outside the house… and then i twisted my ankle while crossing the road yesterday, everyone was there looking at me like we were having a mini meeting at the traffic light!! and i didnt give a damn because DAMN FARKING PAINFUL man!! i thought i had lost my foot!! and now i am walking handicaply~~ TA MA DE!! i cant imagine what’s gonna happen in the future again~~!!
i dont even have a phone line at home at the moment!! i cant make calls to mommie!! and i cant online!! *arrrrghhh* and i already missed one week’s lectures and tutorials as i didnt have time to go to uni!! i had been busy for the whole week loading and unloading my stuffs, cleaning, arranging… DUH~
and there were times when i needed accompanions and some comfortings… luckily my dearest cousins always there with me!! *muacks* unlike someone acting like a BIATCH never ever give a damn!!
bless myself… not to be so unlucky anymore, PLEASE… and also to Mayvis, good luck girl, i am here feeling you all the time!!