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ma de!! remember the BIATCHIE MANAGER? she is really damn CHEAP weik!! i saw her stealing money!! she stole our TIPS!! my godzzzzzzz… few bucks also wanna steal… somemore she is already 44 years old! OH MY GOD… wanna bluff our tips money… yer… beh tahan man!! usually we share all the tips money, but i saw her keeping some of the tips for herself… aiskkzzz… what the fark man~~~~~!!

and yea, finally i already got approval from my corp law lecturer that i can do it in metropolitan… but… the problem that i am facing is… i have a ticket… but no seat for me to go back lar… *HELP*… i need a private jet to send me back… faster faster!! =(

really busy recently, not physically but mentally though… had been waiting for results… now they are out… 1 failed after all… but the problem is… ONLY ONE BLARDEE SUBJECT!! and i will need to stay for another semester? i really really dont wish to… been googling for information… hoping to do it in malaysia and still obtain an australian degree… no result yet…

alice is real good… she can do both her electives in malaysia for summer and then ALL DONE!!!!

awwwwwwwwwwwww… i need more luck!!

anyway, i need something sweet… like this…

yea… i had it yesterday… it was yummie…

[updated]i tell you what, NEVER EVER enrol into VU!! VU SUCKS!! seriously sucks!! they dont give NearPass… they dont have Supplementary paper… they have nothing!! failed = failed… they never wanna help!! they are money sucker!! i cant imagine what’s the failing rate for AMA, 9 people that i know who taking this subject, including me… 7 failed… only 2 who passed… *knnccbtnshkc*

everyone was very worried… so we decided to do something instead of waiting for the result…

so we went to sing K… that’s really a good way to release stress…

but still… at the end, still gotta check… ok… 1 failed, 1 pending *i dont know what is that, not out yet*, 1 credit, 1 pass…

i am now trying to do something with the failed subject… maybe asking for a supplementary paper or so… i already tried looking for summer courses offered by other uni around australia and also colleges in malaysia, but… useless… if nothing is gonna change in the end, i will have to stay for another semester… which is you all should know that i will be going crazy soon…

hehehe… was chatting with my dear ex bf, Esmund… aka ASS-MAN… wakkakakakakakakkaa… ok, we were catching up with each other’s recent news and all and suddenly we were talking about the PAST… discussing the pic that we took… i still have this pic with me and it’s the only one soft copy pic with him that i have in my computer now… just because that… i think we both look great in that pic… hahahaa… especially, i was still YOUNG and THINNER… aiskkzzz… now… i am 4 years older and so much fatter… =(

the young and pretty us… the sweet memory… =)

i went to work last night… well… not bad ler, at least that BIATCH manager was ok last night… she didnt step on my tail…

but then my mrs boss was being a JOKER last night… she has been looking for more people to work for her and so last night she asked us to bring friends to her… and she said that she wanted LENGLUIZ… and the sentence ended with ‘like ERICCA’… at the moment i heard it, i went … then i tried to follow up with the joke by… ‘sorrie lar, ericca is the most lengluiz edi, you cant get more’… then it’s mrs boss’s turn to …

oh man, i seriously hope that there are more lengluiz coming in… so that i can RUN!! i looked at my timetable and the people that are working… i went like… OMG… it seems like everyone is working everyday… bahhhhhhh… i thought that i could give my shifts to someone who is not working… *bangwall* and now i am actually looking for some office jobs or some better jobs that i can at least list them under my EXPERIENCE LIST instead of waitressing… so i think that time i will be working like a mad cow day and night, since i cant quit working here in laksa king… *pengsan*

on the other hand, now waiting for my results… and then will try to look for summer courses in malaysia, so hopefully that i can go back to at least do my summer course? oh well… bless my results, please… thankiew… =)

actually not a superb happiness… but still it is meant to be mentioned…

first time of my life visitng victoria market’s night market!! *yeay* althought pasar malam is still the best, what to do… it’s already the best substitute ok!! and there was this thing that better than pasar malam is… DUTCH PANCAKES!! wooohooo~~~ it’s the bomb man, seldom have the chance to eat it… so it’s a rare and good stuff!! =)

besides, another happy thing is… the upgraded feeling… finally i know that i dont love you anymore, i dont like you anymore… but i still enjoy your accompany, feeling so abnormally comfortable with you by my side… your words and your actions still make me smile… i still enjoy playing with your tummy, pinching your cheeks, tickling you… a hug and a kiss from you are satisfying stuffs… i dont know what is it called… but i am sure that it’s not LOVE… =)

oh yea!! MIRACLE!! few days ago, i placed my chocolate beside my laptop, and it went melted due to the heat coming out from the laptop, so then i moved the chocolate to another side… and until today, the chocolate is BACK IN ORIGINAL shape… with a HARD body!! wooohoo~~~ *geng*

the bomb of the day!! maple+butter+icing sugar dutch pancakes!! *yumyum* i had this plate thingie as dinner last night… AUD5.50…

the only thing i bought there, the pendant… so cute yea… AUD5…

i accidentally found this pic in my phone… taken by UNKNOWN photographer… most probably ALICE!! and i didnt even notice the existence of this pic… HHAHAHAHAH… but hey, kinda natural and unique mar… kekekekeke… =P ok, that’s me after shower facing the computer…

damn damn damn!! the day is approaching…!! and i am seriously not confident in it… especially my AFA!! damn… HELP!! everything is getting scarier and scarier now… bahhhh… i am getting ready to do another semester next year…

besides, i have got a call from my real estate agent… now i know that we are not allowed to look for house yet… as our contract is until march!! *WTF* and this lady told me that if we insist to move out meaning that we are breaching the contract… SO JUST LET US BREACH THE CONTRACT LAR!!! breach contract = pay fine only mar…!!! ishhh!!! why the hell dont let people move out one!! ishhh… 38 one forcing people to stay until march then only start looking for another house eh? sure sleep on the street edi lar… *MDHNSS*

arghhhhhhhh!!! where is my luck!! i need luck weik!!

oh my godzzz… this is getting irritating… at first, it’s already very hard to find a 4 rooms house… but then now is getting even more complicated with this one MAYBE not staying, then that one’s brother MAYBE coming… wahlaoo… how lar like this… *pengsan*

it seems like everyone is not sure with it… i feel like not wanna think of it edi… how i wish that i can PASS all this semester so that i need not to go to uni next semester and so that i can stay as far as i can… i can even move to SANCTUARY LAKES!! or PORT PHILIP to stay beside the beach… or i can be a BACKPACKER, backpacking around… or maybe i can stay in my cousin’s garage… or maybe i can even stay in KL!!!! aiskkkzzz… but… results… *worried*

GIVE ME A HOUSE LAR!!!! ish~~~

well, thankx for the comments, i really really appreciate it… thankx to zhanshen, CI, mayvis and yuenqi… i am sorry that if i made anyone worried about me… especially my mom… she was sad and disappointed… *SORRIE*

kinda surprised that i have found a loyal reader of MaGiCLaND… hehehehee… YURI =) although i dont know who you are, thankx for the supports and the comments… hopefully i wont be like a BABY anymore…

and because of the problem i faced, i then had the chance to talk to someone… HAHHAHAHA… this someone usually never wanna talk to me at all, always runs away from my messages… but he always there to talk to my problems… the person is…

* wheimeng * says:
I LOVE YOU VIAN YEE

hahahaha… love ya IDIOT!! =P

anyway, the next day my mom tried to talk to me on msn but i was out… and she thought that i wouldnt wanna talk to her, she emailed me… and she called me… she thought that i ignored her… *so childish =P* nah lar, i know that she cares… and i actually didnt hate her nor i was angry with her… it’s just that i was so irritated for so difficult to make a proper decision… in fact, i dont think that anyone was wrong for that matter, even me myself i dont know which is the correct way… i was just too confused… i dont know what to do, i am afraid that any decision made will be a mistake, i am not confident to make any move… i dont think anyone can gurantee which is the correct way, right?

hmmm… i am going to put this matter on hold, i replied my mom’s email and now waiting for her reply… and i have many other things to worry for… i am worrying for my house, need to move out soon but havent found a house yet… and i need a job which also i havent found yet… and… the god damn result will be out soon… and I AM SERIOUSLY WORRIED!!

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today went to a mini gathering with my primary school mates… everyone already working… they are doing quite good i assume… but there was one told me that it’s hard, and another one planning to go back soon as she hasnt found a job yet… well… it’s all luck i bet…

oh yea, finally one thing that i was kinda happy about for today… there was this girl, my friend’s friend… she asked me whether i TATTOO-ed my eyeliner… *wakakkakakakakaka* which means my eyeliner-drawing-skill is good! ekkekeke… professional huh!! and then she said that my skin was smooth and she asked whether i applied powder or foundation… i replied NONE… she was shocked… WAKAKKAKAKAKAKA~~ *yeay*

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then me and alice drove out to look for houses… we went to altona, point cook, newport, sunshine, westona, williamstown… we even went to a beach!! then we came to Sanctuary Lakes… WAHLAOOO!! damn nice weik!! *saliva dripping all the way* let’s me share some pics taken with my new baby n70… *note that pics taken in a MOVING car* i would rate it VERY CLEAR…

tell you what, this house is located MIDDLE of the lake… and you can jump into the lake from your house… so damn syiok yea…

nice leh…

and then… here comes the cam whore… =P

AnnChin says:
haiiii…………but u also have to see & think lah…..Wat we gather all the info now..is in Msia……now…every one talking if your children studying oversea….if they get job there bette lah….. come back….will problem…. the place also full crimes… eetc,…… so we as parents…. how???

ok… i am tired, i am seriously very tired… been arguing for the same topic non-stop for so long… you have never changed your mind, me too never planned to change… but now… I AM CHANGING!! enough… more than enough… i will do what you want me to do… ok!!!!

you have been asking me to plan for myself, think for myself… yes, i really do, and i know what i want and what i dont want… i know that i hate to be here, i know that how much i wish that i can go home… all the time, you SEEM to be very supportive, SEEM to give me much freedom for my future… but, on the other hand, you have never tried to give up on hoping for the miracle that i will one day decide to stay here… it’s all your wish…

every now and then, people coming from here and there keep telling me that staying is good, and in fact, the ONLY BEST CHOICE… meaning if i go back to malaysia = wrong… and so, when i say i dont wanna stay means i am wrong, means that i dont know how to think, means that my future will be sucks, means that i am a failure… all you telling me is my way is wrong, your way is right… you will stop nagging me until i say that ‘YES, I WILL STAY’…

so that my future will be working, working and working, saving up all the money until the day i die… and i will be dying with all my money!! i will be a rich ghost!! i bet that time i cant define what is a LIFESTYLE…

so if i stay, what would the reasons be? TWO reasons! first… the RM to AUD exchange rate, 3 : 1… very high huh, but does it matter me if i work here and i spend it here? NO! so who? of coz my parents in malaysia who will be freaking happy if i send them AUD1k and they will be getting RM3K… second… the reason is, staying here = right, going back = wrong, i have to do the right thing, so i have to stay. fullstop.

so, do i actually have a choice? the answer is NO! stop telling me that people are just giving ADVICES… bullshit!!! they are just telling me what to do…

can you please not making me to hate myself? not making me to hate staying alive? i already hate it to study here, staying here for that few years already such a pain, and you want me to stay here to work, to stay for long… GOOD, i will be hating my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!