Author: eRiCCa

i am hoping for another new life… yea… again!! it seems like i always looking forward another new and better life… it seems like i always dont like my current life… yea yea yea!! that’s the fact!!!

again… i miss people that i love so much… my dear family, dear family buddies, dear DIDI~~

of coz, i cant have new family over here, so my family is not replaceable… but i thought of having more friends here, maybe better friends… but then, i feel so sorrie to myself, i cant find any friend here, what i mean is a true and real friend… so still my best buddies are the BEST!!! love ya lots and lots… so i found that, people in melbourne all not nice one!! ahhahaha…

well, i miss my didi lar!!!! who is my didi? James Thong Chee Wai lor… ahhahahaha!! i bet he will scold me if he is reading this… =P but who cares, i like to tell people that i like and love them… wahahhahaha!! my petbro since form 3… wow, it’s already 6 years man!! i appreciate this special relationship with him which cheers me a lot…!! he used to be my DIARY, yea, he was the ONLY ONE who knew about my EVERYTHING… even some very secretive secret… hahaha, i dont know whether he thinks that this is good or not, but for sure, i love to have him around me!! that’s fun!!! recalling those days checking my own desk when first reaching my class every morning, yea, to check whether anything from my dearest didi… recalling the mail box that i used to have only to store my didi’s emails… we had up to 3 mails a day, and not those 1k mails, those were 5k mails… i love them man!! whenever i was doing shopping, i always had my eyes on something to buy for my didi… yea, i very sek him, just like my SON!! hahaha… and it’s funny when i greet him happy birthday and he greets me happy birthday too… coz we have the same birthday and there was once we celebrated our birthday together and it was only both of us, so lame!! ahahhaha… it’s fated man!!! although these days, we seldom chat with each other, still i miss him and love him so much… *muacks* hoping that he can be my dearest didi forever and ever… =)

sometimes i wonder, since i have my heart for so many people out there edi… will i still have a part of my heart to have my lover? ahahha… it’s kinda funny yea… what i had last time was, i had my ex and abandoned others, especially my buddies… i feel so sorrie for that, but they didnt blame me for that yea… so nice!! so, now i love everyone more and more, so i guess my future bf must be very chamz… ahhahaa…

on the other hand, i think it’s very hard for me to get a bf or a new friend anymore… i really find it so hard… and i find most people are so mean and not as nice as those people i know… well, maybe it’s because that i knew them since high school, and that time we traded our friendship with heart… but now, adults’ world is so complexed, not that pure anymore, everyone is being too fake… i am so blessed as i can still be so close with my dearly friends… i really feel so damn blessed… =)

haiihzz… my happening and lame friends left edi!!! Charmaine and Kelvin left melbourne this evening edi… they are now in sydney… wahlao… how nice if i can follow them to sydney then follow them back to perth… hahahaha… *dreaming*

well, although it was only a few days being together, i feel so sad that they leaving man!! gotta admit that, i really had fun with them… those laughters were really MAD!! especially Charmaine, wahlao, she is so talketive and we can talk about ANYTHING!! it’s fun talking to her… so sad that we couldnt have chance to go for karaoke ler… haiihzzz… hoping to see them SOON in perth… yea yea yea, i really feel like going to perth now man!!! hehehe… but the time is limited… well… no worries!! i will see you guys again!!! yea… then we can go for karaoke, then i can see TORO, then i can eat 10bucks dim sum buffet, then i can play with kangaroos, a lot a lot a lot!!! *miss you guys a lot*

and suddenly, i realised that ‘admire’ and ‘like’ are different things… admiring a nice person, those good things in this person… but like, is feeling, no matter good or not…

wow!! i am so happy today!!! guess what!!! yea… first time in my life SEEING snow, TOUCHING snow, PLAYING snow, SITTING on snow, WALKING on snow, LYING on snow, CRAWLING on snow, FALLING DOWN on snow… hehehehe… happie man!!! it was FREEZING there, so cold!!! at 1.6 degrees leh~~~~ and the snow was so damn soft weik, so thick somemore, kept falling down lar once we stepped on it, and it went down, the whole leg went in… hahaha… gotta pull the leg out of it… and yea, then i lazy to walk edi, so i start to crawl… hahahaha… it’s damn funnie lar… =) then we had snow-ball war… fun fun fun!!! and the place is damn NICE man!!!! feeling damn good over there, but then a bit disappointed lar coz it wasnt SNOWING… anyway, luckily it was so worth it, nice view and a great experience after driving like mad for so long and the 1.5 lanes road but meant for 2 lanes… damn scary somemore… luckily we are SAFE!!!

hehhhe… i had a great day, thanks to Terence and his cousins Kelvin and Charmaine… wahlao, days with you guys are really fun man!!! lame jokes… and… the best joker of the day goes to KELVIN!! hahaha… he was damn funny whole day talking and doing lame things… well, it’s great knowing you guys… *nice to meet ya* Charmaine, when are we going to K man!!! but too bad… you guys leaving edi… haiihzz… sad!!! hope to see you guys again SOON!!

RESPONDING TO THE PREVIOUS ENTRY “I’m sick of myself”

guess what!!! i got a sms just now!! and it is from… yea… my 2nd ex… hahahahaha… now i notice i have his number and name in my digi phone book!! wahahahahaha… and he is GAVIN!! but no last name there, so i still dont know… heheheh…

erm… well, things are strange, things that you appreciate, wont come to you but things that you dont appreciate, they always appear!! it’s like sometimes i still miss or think of somebody, maybe they already dont have me in their minds… just like while people still miss me but i already forgotten their names… somemore he asked me whether i still remember him… asking whether i can receive his sms or not coz he doesnt have my aussie contacts, the only way he can contact me is through my digi line… he even asked me to reply him… should i? but i dont think that i am going to reply… coz, i dont see a point to do so! or should i reply ‘i remember you, gavin mar, what’s your last name ar? but i dont miss you…’ no right… just leave it lar, and pretending that i didnt receive…

sometimes i wonder… is it that one will always remember the things that he or she cant get and never bother to remember the things that he or she doesnt want or doesnt like…

tonight i am happie… i have my cousin staying with me… =) i am not lonely… yea yea yea!!

i am back!! no mood… another paper is certified! crazy and i am dead!! thinking… what can i work as if i quit studying huh? haiihzzz… open book is not good actually, you wont have enough time to flip over those pages and you wont even know where to start from… and books and notes are too many till you wont even have space to put your things and write properly… and the shittie part is… answers are not found in the book… haiiihhzzz… should i go to get a MC now, and apply for special consideration to resit the paper?

somemore i didnt sleep well last night… brain was functioning like a snail… and mommie told me that facing the computer for long hours can cause the brain to move slower, cannot concentrate well… and… alcohol can kill brain cells… wahlaoo… i think it’s time for me to die edi, since my brain is USELESS edi!!!!! what am i waiting for… see me if you still can see me… miss me if you cant see me anymore…

想哭　來試探自己麻痺了沒
全世界　好像只有我疲憊
無所謂　反正難過就敷衍
走一回　但願絕望和無奈遠走高飛

我&#30340#30340;世界將被摧毀　也許事與願違
我的世界將被摧毀　或許頹廢也是另一種美

wahlao… this is mad weik!!! i went to bed 3am but then i couldnt sleep man!! what is this… i donnt know why, maybe i was hungry… i kept forcing myself to sleep sleep sleep… but i couldnt and the last time i looking at the time was 413am… and i woke up at 550am… oh man, can i say that i SLEPT? haiihzz… my housemate and her bf are even crazier!! they were bathing while i woke up and when i walked out from my room at 630am, they already left… mad huh? there must be something’s wrong with the ‘feng shui’ of this house!! and i am so blur now… hope that i can WAKE UP later… warm up…

oh, and i have a plan for tonight!! hehehe… i think i am going to COOK SOMETHING!! yea yea… gonna start to learn cooking TONIGHT!! and my lovely cousin is invited!! ngekngekngek… oh MS. ANDREA, dont get jealous yea, MS. TERI is going to have something *NICE*… wahahhaha… i doubt… hahahahaha…

finally at 3am… now i am going to take a rest!! gonna wake up at 630am later… wahlaoo… and my last paper will be starting at 930am!! yoorrrh… and then… i will be FREEEEEEEEEE at 12.45pm SHARP!!!!!!! lalallalalalalaa~~~

wahsai, i told myself I MUST BLOG this!!! so amazing… hahahaha… cant help myself though… i just come back from library, and IMMEDIATELY i am blogging before i forget… poor memory i have…

well… i dont know why, this song had been round and round and round in my mind whole day… so i started to think “who the hell is this person” while i was on the way home… when i was recalling my PAST, and physically i had 3 ex-es, the funny part is… DAMN!! i cant recall their names!! ahhahaa… i really cant, iiisssh… how sad it is man!! i can only recall the first one, and the other 2… oh no… can anyone please tell me… hahahaha… yooorh, i really sick of myself lar, am i having such a BAD memory huh? wahlao, the last one was less than 6 months ago and the 2nd one was less than 1 year… and i have forgotten everything? sad man! i cant really remember their names, their birthdates, their phone numbers, their car plate numbers… but for some reasons, i can still remember SOME OTHER PEOPLE’s names in FULL, birthdates, phone numbers, car plate numbers… wahlaoeh, damn sick man!! i feel so bad now… haiihhzzz…

yet, i actually know who is the person… hehehe… NO! i am not going to admit it!! and NO NO NO NO NO!! for those people in kl, i think i know who you guys are thinking now… and i am telling you, NO! proudly and loudly!! i am not a loser… wahahhaha…

and this is the song for today:

爱一个人好难 – 苏永康 – 爱一个人好难

你说你还是喜欢孤单其实你怕被我看穿
你怕属于我们的船漂漂荡荡靠不了岸
事到如今没有答案我的真心为你牵绊
不管相见的夜多么难堪简简单单的说爱是不爱
想要把你忘记真的好难思念的痛在我心里纠缠
朝朝暮暮的期盼永远没有答案
为何当初你选择一刀两断听你说声爱我真的好难
曾经说过的话风吹云散
站在天秤的两端一样的为难唯一的答案爱一个人好难

p/s:

zeno, if you have the chance reading this, i wanna tell you something… remember the baby minnie keychain that you bought me from tokyo? yea, previously, her left hand was broken… and today, very sadly, her right hand broken as well… SORRIE =(
can buy me another one ar? hahahahahah…

yuan, and remember the bear kaychain that you bought for me from singapore? oh no worries, his hands are still ok… but, he is very dirty edi… can you please come and bath for him ar? *thank you*

well… it’s 2am now, i am still awake here coz i slept too much in the afternoon and feeling sad and lonely… i talked to my uncle, popo and mom just now… i felt so warm talking to them… i felt the care and the love… i felt like crying just now, BUT NO WAY!! i dont dare to cry out, i cant let them know about this… so that they wont worry about me… but then it’s really hard man… how i hope i can have all of them with here with me… i dont like the life i am having now… seriously hate it!!!!

well, i got this fowarded mail, and i find it quite interesting… hehehe… share with you guys, and erm… yea, what do you think of me then? i am a march baby here… *grinz*

MARCH:

Attractive personality. – am i?
sexy. – really?
Affectionate. – yea, i think i am TLC.
Shy – yea, i am shy… sometimes.
reserved. – yes yes yes!
Secretive. – keeping secrets to myself =)
Naturally honest, – i am honest for sure!
generous – to people that i like.
sympathetic. – confirmed!
Loves peace – yea, dont fight, dont bully me…
serenity. – dont think so.
Sensitive to others. – i am always sensitive.
Loves to serve others. – coffee, tea or ME?
Easily angered. – dont play play…
Trustworthy. – oops, dont trust me please…
Appreciative – yea, i appreciate all good things and people.
returns kindness. – depends…
Observant – yea, i am 8, i observe a lot!! so?
assesses others. – sometimes lor… =P
Revengeful. – dont mess with me!
Loves to dream and fantasize. – wow, my best subject!
Loves traveling. – fun fun fun!
Loves attention. – why not?
Hasty decisions in choosing partners. – huh? then why am i single for so long?
Loves home decors. – yea, nice and cute one!!!
Musically talented. – i am not… sorrie…
Loves special things. – yeap!!
Moody. – wah, i think everyone knows about this! haha…

p/s: anyone wanna know about youself, let me know ok…