Category: eRiCCa

hmm… suddenly thought of some additional information for previous blog @aLVeRi@, just feel like adding on…

well, it’s hard to forget someone special that has impact on us, it’s normal that we still always have this kinda special people in our minds… so i dont think that we need to FORCE ourselves to forget them~~ there is no point doing so… it is painful to do so as well… if something or someone is meant to be forgotten, they will be forgotten automatically ONE DAY, just let it be… SO, no rush~ that will be better…

you will be RENEWED and happie one day once you have found that you have already out of the blue~~ then, congrats yourself… =)

there is this song strongly recommended by ME!! “Out Of The Blue” by Delta Goodrem… *ENJOY*

Out Of The Blue

A new beginning
A new chapter of my life
Started the day
When I thought it could be my last
My eyes were wide shut, but I
I hadn’t given up
Just thought I’d be working
The world alone

Out of the blue
There I met you
You showed me a life
I can’t see without you
And there’s just no way
That I can fight these emotions
Your energy running through me
Nobody can renew me
Like you
Out of the blue
Can this be true

Family and friends they were my life
I wasn’t one for butterflies
But you gave me love that I can’t disguise
There will be times when we’re apart
I want you to know you’re in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

No emotions
My whole body felt like ice
Needed to feel that the sun would shine my way
My world had turned to dust but I
I had my faith and trust
Just thought I’d be walking
The world alone

Family and friends they were my life
I wasn’t one for butterflies
But you gave me love that I can’t disguise
There will be times when we’re apart
I want you to know you’re in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

Out of the blue
There I met you
I can’t believe
That this happened so soon
There’s just no way
That I can fight these emotions
Your energy running through me

(out of the blue)
(there I met you)
(you showed me a life )
I can’t see without you
(out of the blue)
Without
There I met you, you
(you showed me a life)
I can’t see without you

There will be times when we’re apart
I want you to know you’re in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

(family and friends they were my life)
(I wasn’t one for butterflies)
Out of the blue
There I met you

p/s: anyone interested let me know~

This entry is especially dedicated to someone special, Alvin…

I am so touched after reading the entry and I know that I can’t do anything… I have tried lecturing, I have tried giving up, I have tried consoling… but at the end, it still wouldn’t work… all I can do for being someone so far apart is just PRAYING and STANDING BY… I would just pray for you to be happy now and then, stand by to listen to you and talk to you when you are feeling no right… and I guess that’s all that I can do…

As I know, there is nothing if I am to tell you to ‘forget about her’ or ‘wait for her’… as you know what you want and what you should do, all I can do is stay NEUTRAL~ of course, I believe that you have your own way to choose your happiness, right? =)

Honey, you are always the smart, confident, happy, sweet and perfect boy, ok? Don’t ever do something that would worry people around you, everyone loves you, be strong yea… remember, you have to go on happily with your life no matter what… *cheers*

‘@aLVeRi@’ always… I still think that Alveri is a SWEET name~~ =)

*hugz+muackz*

*phew* another half day in library!! and hey, today is a memorable day man!! where i ate my VERY FIRST mcD meal in melbourne thi afternoon as LUNCH!! hm… but actually i did eat the breakfast ONCE on the first day i arrived, then nomore after that till today!! *wooohooo~~*

oh yea, i am now waiting to go to SEXPO SEXPO SEXPO~~ waiting for pics? hahaha… good… MAN MAN WAIT~~ hehehehehehee… then after sexpo i am heading to CLAYTON for BBQ~~~ yeah~~~ *yummie* hopefully there is SOMEONE to bbq everything for me then i will just EAT when i reach there… *muahahahhaahah~*

oklar… some PIMPLES pics…

dutch-ericca?

bored… =(

me and my CORP LAW~ =)

damn damn damn~ so many pimples edi!! fark fark fark!! nomore pics gonna be shown here AT THE MOMENT!! too stressed edi… not enough sleep… too heaty… worrying too much…

*awwwww* what a life~~

well, went to have dinner with my auntie, uncle and cousins and also with puishan and alice at Laksa King… but then it was a heavy rain after the dinner, so that my plan to SEXPO was then failed~~ argh… gotta go tomorrow!!! =)

just had a chat with my mom just now… haha, she was so worried about me till smsing me everyday and calling me everyday… i mean RECENTLY~~!! i have been telling her how stressed i am… then we were talking about “whether i should transfer back to study in kl” this question has been running in my mind again and again… but, i still cant make a decision… *haiihhhzzz*

please tell me there is miracle~~ please~~~

i hate OPENED BOOKS exam!! MA DE!! i screwed it lar!! i knew that i know how to do… BUT… not enough time for me to FLIP the pages lar! damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

having my dinner break now… gonna rush to library for tomorrow’s paper!! FARK!!!

arrghh… just back from SUPPER!! we went for supper after library!~~ and it’s damn late now!! it’s almost 1am edi~~ damn!!! and i dont much time left to my FIRST PAPER edi!! damn damn damn!!! I AM FARKING SCARED!!! luckily i went to stock up 2 bars of DAIRY MILK, so that i can EAT it when i feeling stressed tomorrow!! yea, i am going to bring into the EXAM HALL~~ yoohoo~~

pics from library~

puishan and alice so hardworking wor…

MY WORLD IS UPSIDE DOWN~

robin is sleeping? studying? or talking to Ultraman?

dont blame me, too BORED!!

poor lil ericca looks so tired~~ =(

well, let’s make a quick blog while i am now having my breakfast and chatting with my mom on msn… hmm… after this i will be in the library again!!! tomorrow will be my FIRST paper!! damn scary weik!! then THE NEXT day another paper again!!! *shiattttt* hopefully i will be alright~~ =)

pic taken in the library using my friend’s nokia6600

wooohooo~~ it’s the end of another semester again, and i have to camp in the library everyday again just to kick the exam’s butt!! damn it!!

anyway, to tell the truth… I AM IN LOVE~~ ahha, i love my textbooks, my notes, the library… they are so damn GORGEOUS~~ *drooling* yea, my daily life from 11am-11pm, 12 hours CUDDLING~~ that’s so LOVELIEEEE~~

even my mom and my ah yee messaged me in msn wondering i really so concentrate in studying and didnt online for the whole day… hahahaahahaah~~~ oh well, yea people, i did!! and it’s gonna be for TWO WEEKS!! and i think i will be FLYING after that~~ ahaha and BREAK UP with my LOVERS!! =P

today i am HAPPY!! coz… firstly, i almost CRIED out when i was taking a 10mins break at the computer lab, i saw a greeting card from Hallmark by my MOMMIE~ yea, i knew what’s gonna be, she asked about my preparation and also asked me to try my best… *thankiew mommie* i am trying to do as good as possible~ hopefully not gonna disappoint anyone again~ =)

secondly… i saw a CUTE guy in library~~ wahahhahaa~~ the PINKIE guy~~ =P

*hugz+muackz* to people out there, thankiew very much…

erm… after so many comments, and i have been thinking of it for sometime though… the conclusion is… i will HOLD~ ahahhaha… neither YES nor NO~ =P

i mean, i wont make a decision so soon… i am going to give myself a chance to browse for A BETTER ONE!! i want only ONE please, i am not greedy… hehe~ and i also know that he USED TO BE THE BEST, but i dont think that he is still the one he used to be, NO, i mean i am SURE that he is no longer that NICE TO ME already… yea, and i believe that there is still SOMEONE is much better than him, someone who wont leave me like what he did… and i also hope that this SOMEONE gotta be the LAST ONE though… a serious and a steady relationship is on my way… =)

of coz, i have no idea when this someone gotta appear in my life, BUT i am going to WAIT~~ ehehe, hopefully before the day that i give up on guys and go for GIRLS instead yea… ahahahaha~~

thinking of it, having a bf now is not suitable for me though, as i still have a long way to work on my studies here in melbourne… having a bf in melbourne doesnt secure me as i will be going home to kl one day in the future… having a bf in kl also doesnt secure me while i am studying in melbourne… does this mean that i will still have to wait for ANOTHER YEAR? hahaaha… no idea~~ =)

hahaahha… maybe CUPID gonna strike on me and get me my MR RIGHT during this summer holiday? and it will last forever? hahahaa… *dreaming~*

anyway, GOODLUCK to myself and everyone~ =)

ADDITIONAL: erm… can i state my requirements here as well? hahaha… firstly, A GUY, with SUPERB caring ability, 2-7 years older than me, flooding me with LOVES, hoping me to be his LAST girl, at least 10cms TALLER than me, BIGGER size than me, MATURED thinking, knows what he wants in LIFE, loves both my FAMILY and his FAMILY, a nice FRIEND to my BUDDIES and EVERYONE, a lil small MANJA boy SOMETIMES… *hahaha… not too DIFFICULT to get HIM right?* =P

why does the same thing wanna attack me AGAIN and AGAIN? why? especially things that i have already made a decision, but why you wanna mess it up again? and i really really dont hope to have this happen again and again…

broke up, after 1 year, got back, then broke up again… after 1 year, miss me again?

it’s like, what are these man? i dont know what do you mean by happy talking to me again, i dont know what is finally feel relieved after talking to me, i dont understand why you hope me to appear in front of you immediately, i dont know why you miss me, i dont know why you always miss me after 1 year of ignorance and i dont know what you want…

PLEASE, dont tell me that you want me back… i am getting mad soon~

and why cant i just SAY NO? any reason stopping me from that? i have actually told myself that there will be NO NO NO if this gonna happen again… and godzzz… hopefully it’s not what i expected… will it be miss me as a FRIEND? hopefully…