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weeeeeeheeee~~~ i always believe that one person wont be so damn unlucky for so long one… kekekekekek… and yes, i think i already gone through the WORST days… so now, my luck is BACK!! kekekekekekekek~~~ i played monopoly again last night… and i didnt lose until very cham ooorrhh… in fact, i seldom go to jail oooorhhh~~~ *grinz*

erm… went to this mamak with family… while i ordered a TEH TARIK, but my mom and brothers ordred ABC… this waiter there damn kurang ajar… i already said i wanted a teh tarik but then he kept asking me ‘ABC?’ ma de!!!!! damn dulan siaoz, then i asked him to ‘SHHHHHHHHH’ and i repeated again with ‘T-E-H T-A-R-I-K’… then he somemore ‘ABC lar’ then i raised up my arm ALMOST wanna whack him edi… damn geram~~~~!!

then during night time… went to petaling street… yoohooo~~ damn long didnt go there edi… damn happening… but damn boring also… hahahahahahah~~

anyway, i am still PISSED!! at an IDIOT!!

finally, he is now gone forever… the saddest day afterall… rest in peace… and also thankx people for the concern =)

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well, was kinda happy and been waiting for something to happen TONIGHT… as someone said… but then… an idiot is forever an idiot, a liar is forever a liar… he said i didnt reply his message while i said i didnt receive his message… it’s really tired of arguing all the time… the feeling is not good at all… i dont know what’s wrong with our PHONES… his phone tends to ignore my messages most of the time… while mine also doesnt like his messages… i guess, we are not meant to contact each other… shall i let you gone forever as well…

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i was able to get him, and he responded… but then he asked me to wait for him to finish his bowling games at 430am just to accompany him to ta pao A&W? while i left my mamak session with friends at 330am? *ARGHHHH* i would say that… not sincere at all!! nah, i wasnt that dumb to do so, i went home instead… =)

it’s the 2nd night of the funeral… tonight… sorry to say that, but i must say… it’s a fun night… hahahahaha… we laughed a lot… those SI FUs damn joker, and also there was this session where we gotta pick up coins that hiding in the sand… everyone was like fighting for it, kinda fun… and nobody was crying though… guess everyone already accepted the fact…

and to me, it’s my SMS night… hahahahah… been sms-ing all night long… i think… almost sent out 100 smses? hahahaha, so that the time flies faster, same to my credits… HAHHAHHAHA~

anyway, time to rest… damn freaking tired man these few days… tomorrow last edi…

well, 7th january 2006, at around 1am… finally, my uncle had decided to leave this world… peacefully… after one of the uncles visited him… i guess, he had been waiting for this uncle to be back from outstation to see him, as they were kinda close to each other… as usual, he was a loner, even till the moment he left… he left when there was nobody beside him… when the wives rushed there, his body already covered with white cloth…

hopefully that he is now understand how to love himself and his family more… and be a better person next life… till then… rest in peace…

my this elder uncle already passed away because of high blood pressure… my another younger uncle went through a heart operation 4 months ago *HERE* also due to the same problem… that they were all having the same mind… which is… eating is happy, eating delicious food is the happiest moment in life… doctors are idiots… what’s death? die mar die lar…

my dad USED TO be like them too, ah yea, this proves that they are one same family… but then, my dad has changed… probably he has seen too much of these… and also my mom’s mumbling too much… he is now a BETTER MAN… he knows how to control his diet, he knows when to take medicine, he knows he has a family, he knows his responsibility, he knows he has to be healthy… of coz i hope that he will be healthy forever… dont make us worry please…

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oh yea, although a bit inappropraite to do this in this entry… still… i have to do so… HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY IDIOT EX, ESMUND!! damn idiotic called me yesterday asking me to sing him a song… i went like WTF… then only i noticed… today is his birthday… too bad lar, no pressie for you but i already given you the best pressie ever –> my absence! *bluek* wishing you… not gonna have any problem with your deardear anymore, so that i am free from trouble… =P

hmmm… mom told us to ready white t-shirt and jeans… get prepared… even my uncle’s wife already started to build those roof and all… even those Na Mo Lou *i dont know what’s in english* already standing by as well… the heartbeats still maintained at 10, 11, 10, 11… it seems like… he still has SOMETHING that he wanna do… so they thought of his daughters… they brought his daughters to him…

last night, one of his friends brought a Si Fu to see him thought of using some POWER to cure him… but… when the Si Fu looked at him, he didnt wanna help… even doctors said so… there is no point to go for operation as well… now, just let him live for how long he wants…

well… that’s all i have now… arrrrggghhhh… dont know how to imagine what’s gonna happen soon…

yesterday, my dad sent my uncle to the hospital during midnight after his wife called at 3am… he felt dizzy and puking all night long but refused to go to the doctors… his wife couldnt do anything but to ask help from my dad… after that, heard that it was not too bad, it was caused by high blood pressure, which is VERY HIGH…

but this morning… my mom told me that my uncle was very very serious now… he is now in coma… the stomach is bleeding… might be paralyzed… or… even dead… imagine that he is not rich, he has 2 wives and 2 very very young daughters, maybe only 5 years old… how are they going to survive huh…?

basically, his relationship with the brothers wasnt that good previously… especially with my younger uncle… they seldom talk… but then at this moment, i can see that the brothers still care for him… my dad goes to hospital everyday… he cried… he is really really sad… and my younger uncle offers to help to transfer him to a better hospital and all…

but the question is… whether it is too late? can he still be able to recover?

well, he might be not that bad… IF and only IF he was wise enough to listen to people… he is a hardcore smoker… he eats everything although he knows that he has high blood pressure… he thinks that doctors are all money cheaters, he refuses to go to the doctors… his favourite phrase is ‘die mar die lor’… how ‘RESPONSIBLE’ is this man~~~

everyone is worried… his wives been crying… my grandma is in the hospital to see him too, i dont know how is she going to react to this situation…

bless him…

as i mentioned in the previous entry, my start of this 2006 wasnt good… and it went on badly…

went over to mayvis’s place for fun yesterday, the 4 of us, mayvis, her sis, wayleong and i played monopoly… imagine everyone was already at their 6th round and already collected 6 x 200bucks for finishing each round of the game… while me, the ODD one… only managed to collect ONCE of the 200bucks… why leh? coz i went to the BLARDEE JAIL for 4 times!!! do the maths, and wonder there is still one round less… because… my dice was very consistent, it kept showing 1 or 2 all the time… so my speed was like HYPER-SLOW… *WTF* damn sleepy weik… and everytime when it’s almost near to the ‘go to jail’, i had no choice but to believe that i would be going to the jail again, and it was true!!! *ma de hell nia sing sing* everyone laughed at me… i played with a bunch of IDIOTSSSSSSSSSSS!!

today, went for an interview at seksyen 14, the british american tobacco… yea lar, it’s for ciggie lar, dunhill lor… been asking around how to go, but still dont know how to go at the end… luckily veron willing to bring me there… *yeay* so nice de veron~~~ saw a few lengluiz there, telling myself ‘haihzzz… suan le bah’… and when the person incharge asked me to try on the uniform… again… ‘haiihzzz… suan le bah’…

diet diet diet diet diet diet diet~~~~

after that went to meet up with veron’s friend, sai hoe… this idiot kept teasing me and i only meeting him for the first time… he kept teasing like nobody’s business… =( and in his mind, i am known as ‘cherry farm’ just because that i asked veron to skip his convo to go cherry farm with me… =P then this idiot sai hoe smsed veron after his class with ‘i finished my class edi, let’s go to cherry farm’ WTFFFFFFFFFFF~~ where got cherry farm in malaysia lar!! idiot!!

tomorrow going to class lu~~~~ *scared*

happy new year everybody~~~~ it will be a brand new year with all good things coming to us~~~ *yeay*

i had a new year’s eve BBQ at wayleong’s place, with quite a few of us there, it was like a lil gathering… after a while, ken called and asked to go thai club… well… i thought of joining for fun so i asked him to come to fetch me although he didnt know the way… but then, when he was on the way, i had no mood to go edi, but but but he already on the way… haiihzzzz… what to do… it’s proven that i change mind damn fast…

well, finally he managed to pick me up… and my soul was still hanging around in wayleong’s house… aisehhh… feeling damn guilty though thinking of the past 2 new year’s eve that we spent together… *sorrie lar my BUDDIES, somebody damn dulan* hahahahahhaaha… =P

we were stucked in the jam… but still managed to get there early at 1130pm… but… all his friends were still on the way… both of us damn chamz, sitting at a corner dreaming… even when people counting down to new year and when people looking at the fireworks in the sky, we were still moodless sitting there looking at the air…

well well well, it’s not a good start for a new year lor… things didnt go smooth… haiihzz…

till 1am, finally his friends were there… but when we got in, it was so damn packed, no place to stand, no place to walk, no place to dance, no place to sit… no table!!! argggghh… and also MANY HANDS FROM NOWHERE STARTED TOUCHING… ah ma de!! my boobs, my butt, my waist… arrgghhh… all kena touched by dont know who… *ARRGGHHH*

then we decided to leave lor… but ken said wanna get AT LEAST some alcohol… so went to 7-11 to buy beer to drink *lame* only the 2 of us, how sad man… around 3am, he sent me home… BUTTTTTTT, the nightmare only started… when his sms came… known him for 2 years… met like only once a year when i back for holidays… then out of a sudden, he confessed last night… i was seriously shocked… something is just not right, which i really didnt expect it to happen… he said he has been waiting for me to come back… hahahaahhaaha… ANOTHER ONE!!! i dont know how these people WAIT while they said they BEEN WAITING but i couldnt feel it… but well, i already no mood for GUYS!! i need to rest, i am tired…

aisskkkzzz… what a new year man… everything started with negative stuffs…

hoping for a better day =)

awww… just got back from work… not too tired… but damn boring lar the job… HHAHAHHAHA… first time in my life working as a liquor promoter… promoting jack daniels somemore… wahllaoo… where got people drink JD one… so expensive somemore!! aisehhh…

basically, only standing, walking and talking… HAHHAHAHAH~~ damn mou liu~~ somemore there were too many other liquor girls around, all like fighting only… *madness* i didnt join the war though, i only standing there acting as a doll… ahhahahahhaa… then luckily one customer came to me, and just took one bottle!! so nice… only the 2 of them opening one bottle… ma de that fella holding like SO MUCH CASH!! whole stack man, all 100bucks and 50bucks notes leh!! i think… there around… RM4k there lor… he asked me to drink with him, but friend how lar drinking while working, drunk edi how to work… hahahaha… so i told him that i would be back to him later, so i went back there after work to drink with him, guess what, i forced him to get another bottle from me again while his first bottle still left 70%… HAHHAHAHA~~ what did i do? 3 cups for one bottle!! easy job ler… simply bottoms up 3 cups edi… so, another bottle ler!! KEKKEKEKEKE~~ he told me his friends on the way, then i could get another bottle with another 3 cups also, been waiting… but then… time to go home… too bad lar… HAHHAHAHAHA… and guess how this fella paying tips? he took out his stack of money… asked me to take any… wahlaoooo… i wasnt that bad lar… i only took 10bucks… =P how stupid i was… nvm… i will learn to be smarter next time, next time i will take 50bucks… HAHHAHAHHAHAH~

there was this customer damn funny, asked me to drink, and i told him i am still underage to drink and i told him i am only 17… HAHHAHAHA… damn lame~~ but well, i think this job kinda suits me ler… as, i enjoy being in this kinda environment… the people, the music, the place, and of coz the drinks!!

but now… i am feeling kinda dizzy edi… that stupid customer damn kiasu… scared that i not drunk so that he would have to pay for more bottles… he then forced me to drink one cup of NEAT one… cilaka…!! =P not bad though, still can blog… lalalallalaaaaaa~

i dont know what’s wrong with me… i have no mood all the time…

and i dont know why am i here in kl… i thought it would be much better than the life in melb… but, it’s still the same… obviously it’s not the PLACE, but ME… i dont like it here i dont like it there… i dont like this i dont like that, i dont like everything… feeling extremely negative…

everything that i THOUGHT i would be happy for, is now no longer giving the same effect… it seems like… i can hardly find something to make me happy now…

i think i seriously miss zhanshen so much… =( if zhanshen is here, everything MIGHT be different… or at least, he is here to entertain me, to read my mind, to tell me what’s wrong with me… i think he is now too far to SENSE that… and also at least, he is the ONLY ONE who doesnt mind doing stupid and weird thing with me… and he seldom FFK me… he said that he would pui me means he would… haiihzzzz…

probably, i made a wrong decision AGAIN for coming back… should stay in melb to rot… at least… rotting freely in nicer weather… forever wrong one ler me… dont know when only i can make a proper brilliant genius decision of all~~~~

i am now lifeless, aimless, moodless… USELESS!!