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well, first of all, congrats to YY… she has a real good result, good job girl and she is coming over… i am waiting for her to come over… =)

secondly, my result was sucha farked up… even me myself dont believe that i could get sucha result… i was really upset, not coz of the result, but coz of the disappointment that i brought to people who care about me… i felt so guilty and bad… i thought i was the only who deserved the result, but, it’s everyone… sorrie for worrying about me all the time and thanx for forgiving me and understanding me, i am going to do better, i mean much better in the future… i am so blessed that i am having nice family and uncle auntie… thanx!!

on the other hand, both of my crazy friends have left melbourne to kl… they are on the way back to their home sweet home… safe journey yea… kinda miss their presence now, having them during my holiday really fun and great!! hoping for another chance in the future… =)
Mayvis, it’s nice to have this kinda life together with you again after chonghwa… although we didnt really have any chat or do any special thing, i felt happy and nice as it was so comfortable being together with you…
Dayna, my new friend, i am so glad to know you man! you are sucha crazy chick but i love you… your craziness has destroyed the barrier between us on the first day… i felt so comfortable being with you although you were new to me… =) *nice to meet ya*

i actually kinda down… coz of so many things have happened together… and my only true friend here with me, my baby ericca.org is having problem now… she is very ugly now, it’s all my fault, i have made a mistake in the template but i dont know how to fix it back… i am sad… can anyone help me?

wow… it’s been a long time since my last post… well, these days were really busy with my visitors from KL, Mayvis and Dayna… really happy to have them here with me, so that i could have happy and busy days during this holiday… not as bad as expected…!! =)

we even went ZOO!!! what the hell… ZOO man!! yea, we went with quite a few friends, Wei Yu, Hao Pien, Chee Yong, Li Fang, Hui Yi, Dayna, Mayvis, Toung and i… it seems like a chong hwa gathering over here…!! it’s kinda fun though meeting back old schoolmates… nice!!! the bad thing is… i have been eating more than a pig man!!!!! and also i have spending like mad!!!! really spending too much in this week… oh no man… poor girl!!!

there is still a question in my mind… the same question… i really hope to know the truth, but then it’s a bit hard for me… it’s like… erm… hard to ask and… or maybe it’s not that important anymore and maybe it is not meant for me to know… but still… i still have this question mark in my mind for the same question…

yea… i am back!! finally!! this 3 days 2 nights trip to Falls Creek was really an amazing trip!! FABULOUS~~~!! coz… finally i saw SNOWING!!! yes yes yes!! it was so damn wonderful snow~~~ soft and cooling… clean enough to just catch it and put it in your mouth to have an instant ice kacang… ahha…

i didnt ski as i really scared man!! i was sitting in this cafe looking at people skiing and snowboarding… and basically i should say that i was looking at people falling down… and one even got hurt till the ambulance gotta take her away… it’s so scary!! and my friends were so tired and they had bruises too!! 11 of us went on this trip, 9 of them went to ski on the first day, and then 2 gave up after half a day, the last day only 4 went to ski… hahaha…

but then i trully enjoyed the SNOW!! i love SNOW!! snow war was so exciting and funny… we even had ice cream there, LIMITED EDITION of Magnum *WOW* fantastic man!!! it was only around 1 degree… but then it’s really difficult to walk on the snow man!! slippery, cold and soft… eventhough it was cold, i still had sweat as walking on the snow seemed to be an exhausting exercise… and my toes were frozen all the time…

oh yea, the apartment that we stayed in was really nice!! it was so big, it was meant for 8 persons but then there were 10 beds altogether, with nice sofas, pillows, comforters… the kitchen was really complete with all kind of pots, plates, cups… it was enough for partying though… and yea, with clean and new table bloth, dishwasher… really nice!! but then the rental a bit expensive ler, it was around aud1200 for 2 nights… in fact, it was the cheaper range of accomodation… *ooops*

anyway, a big thank to all these funny people out there… AiWei, SuYin, YeeBing, KahYing, YeeKhoon, YeeNah, WeeChin, HaeSim and another 2 friends… you guys made this trip wonderful~~~!!! and i really enjoyed those lame chats… *thanks* =)

woohooo… i am so happy after reading a message from a friend… and her words really really touched me… and i didnt know that both of us could be so close…

we met at nokia while we were both working for the roadshow… and we just CLICKED in just ONE DAY! and that time, i thought… yea, it’s just like normal working partners, would gone after working… but then she is just so different!! even after nokia, she still introduced me other jobs and we both went for it, she still called me for clubbing and yumcha… she even asked me along to take pictures together with her friend in those studios… and now, we still keep in touch… =) i dont know why, she is so damn happening and crappy… but she could understand me so well deep inside my heart, i like to listen to her words, her stories, i enjoy her company…

i miss you and love you so much, darling… SKY…

wahlaoeh… finally i had my very first bak kut teh in life!! but… it’s really hard to have this bak kut teh done man… have gone through so many ups and downs… wahlaoo…

first of all, i thought of going to market to get all these ingredients YESTERDAY… yea, and i was all preparedd, with my shoes on… suddenly… oh my, it’s MONDAY, market is closed!! wahlao… damn sad weik… fine!! go on tuesday then…

and then, today is TUESDAY, there i again well prepared to go to market… and yea, finally i reached Footscray Market, and i looked at the time, oh it was only 1+pm… so i decided to go for a shopping around footscray city… and i went into this boutique, *WOW* i saw this cute little white skirt that i have been searching for ages… yea, and i tried it on, and it’s just so fitting, it’s MINE!!! HOLD ON, what the hell… i didnt bring my wallet man!! no money how to buy… no money how to go market… what the heck!! alright, luckily i was using my daily ticket, or else, i would have to waste a 2-hours ticket…

so i went back to get my wallet and then back to the market before it closed!! oooh… it was closed, but luckily there were still a few stalls there and it’s enough for me!! so i quickly get it done… AND… back to the boutique to buy my skirt!! yea yea, and i bought it!! allalalalala~ so happie… then i continued browsing around, and i saw SHOES! i wanna buy BOOTS!! and i saw that pair, i really like it, i wanted to buy it, so i decided to try them on… and i found out, the ribbon for the left side is shorter… wahlao, broken ribbon!! donkey!! but nvm, i bought the other pair which is even cheaper… hehehehe… so i was so happy with my new things… and… suddenly… OH NO!! i forgot that i need a long time to cook bak kut teh… deng!! so i rushed home again!!

and yes!!! the first bak kut teh in my life… lalalala~~ well, not bad though… hehehe… finally i can cook something… PRESENTABLE~~~ =P

oh yea… not to forget this… guess what i had for my breakfast? hahahah… FRENCH TOAST man!! alright, knew it people would say ‘french toast ONLY mar…’ like what my mom said to me… deng!! sadzz… well, who cares, i am SO DAMN proud of myself… hehehe… i did nice cookings today!! lalalala~ *BOW* thankyou… =P

i am hoping for another new life… yea… again!! it seems like i always looking forward another new and better life… it seems like i always dont like my current life… yea yea yea!! that’s the fact!!!

again… i miss people that i love so much… my dear family, dear family buddies, dear DIDI~~

of coz, i cant have new family over here, so my family is not replaceable… but i thought of having more friends here, maybe better friends… but then, i feel so sorrie to myself, i cant find any friend here, what i mean is a true and real friend… so still my best buddies are the BEST!!! love ya lots and lots… so i found that, people in melbourne all not nice one!! ahhahaha…

well, i miss my didi lar!!!! who is my didi? James Thong Chee Wai lor… ahhahahaha!! i bet he will scold me if he is reading this… =P but who cares, i like to tell people that i like and love them… wahahhahaha!! my petbro since form 3… wow, it’s already 6 years man!! i appreciate this special relationship with him which cheers me a lot…!! he used to be my DIARY, yea, he was the ONLY ONE who knew about my EVERYTHING… even some very secretive secret… hahaha, i dont know whether he thinks that this is good or not, but for sure, i love to have him around me!! that’s fun!!! recalling those days checking my own desk when first reaching my class every morning, yea, to check whether anything from my dearest didi… recalling the mail box that i used to have only to store my didi’s emails… we had up to 3 mails a day, and not those 1k mails, those were 5k mails… i love them man!! whenever i was doing shopping, i always had my eyes on something to buy for my didi… yea, i very sek him, just like my SON!! hahaha… and it’s funny when i greet him happy birthday and he greets me happy birthday too… coz we have the same birthday and there was once we celebrated our birthday together and it was only both of us, so lame!! ahahhaha… it’s fated man!!! although these days, we seldom chat with each other, still i miss him and love him so much… *muacks* hoping that he can be my dearest didi forever and ever… =)

sometimes i wonder, since i have my heart for so many people out there edi… will i still have a part of my heart to have my lover? ahahha… it’s kinda funny yea… what i had last time was, i had my ex and abandoned others, especially my buddies… i feel so sorrie for that, but they didnt blame me for that yea… so nice!! so, now i love everyone more and more, so i guess my future bf must be very chamz… ahhahaa…

on the other hand, i think it’s very hard for me to get a bf or a new friend anymore… i really find it so hard… and i find most people are so mean and not as nice as those people i know… well, maybe it’s because that i knew them since high school, and that time we traded our friendship with heart… but now, adults’ world is so complexed, not that pure anymore, everyone is being too fake… i am so blessed as i can still be so close with my dearly friends… i really feel so damn blessed… =)

haiihzz… my happening and lame friends left edi!!! Charmaine and Kelvin left melbourne this evening edi… they are now in sydney… wahlao… how nice if i can follow them to sydney then follow them back to perth… hahahaha… *dreaming*

well, although it was only a few days being together, i feel so sad that they leaving man!! gotta admit that, i really had fun with them… those laughters were really MAD!! especially Charmaine, wahlao, she is so talketive and we can talk about ANYTHING!! it’s fun talking to her… so sad that we couldnt have chance to go for karaoke ler… haiihzzz… hoping to see them SOON in perth… yea yea yea, i really feel like going to perth now man!!! hehehe… but the time is limited… well… no worries!! i will see you guys again!!! yea… then we can go for karaoke, then i can see TORO, then i can eat 10bucks dim sum buffet, then i can play with kangaroos, a lot a lot a lot!!! *miss you guys a lot*

and suddenly, i realised that ‘admire’ and ‘like’ are different things… admiring a nice person, those good things in this person… but like, is feeling, no matter good or not…

wow!! i am so happy today!!! guess what!!! yea… first time in my life SEEING snow, TOUCHING snow, PLAYING snow, SITTING on snow, WALKING on snow, LYING on snow, CRAWLING on snow, FALLING DOWN on snow… hehehehe… happie man!!! it was FREEZING there, so cold!!! at 1.6 degrees leh~~~~ and the snow was so damn soft weik, so thick somemore, kept falling down lar once we stepped on it, and it went down, the whole leg went in… hahaha… gotta pull the leg out of it… and yea, then i lazy to walk edi, so i start to crawl… hahahaha… it’s damn funnie lar… =) then we had snow-ball war… fun fun fun!!! and the place is damn NICE man!!!! feeling damn good over there, but then a bit disappointed lar coz it wasnt SNOWING… anyway, luckily it was so worth it, nice view and a great experience after driving like mad for so long and the 1.5 lanes road but meant for 2 lanes… damn scary somemore… luckily we are SAFE!!!

hehhhe… i had a great day, thanks to Terence and his cousins Kelvin and Charmaine… wahlao, days with you guys are really fun man!!! lame jokes… and… the best joker of the day goes to KELVIN!! hahaha… he was damn funny whole day talking and doing lame things… well, it’s great knowing you guys… *nice to meet ya* Charmaine, when are we going to K man!!! but too bad… you guys leaving edi… haiihzz… sad!!! hope to see you guys again SOON!!

RESPONDING TO THE PREVIOUS ENTRY “I’m sick of myself”

guess what!!! i got a sms just now!! and it is from… yea… my 2nd ex… hahahahaha… now i notice i have his number and name in my digi phone book!! wahahahahaha… and he is GAVIN!! but no last name there, so i still dont know… heheheh…

erm… well, things are strange, things that you appreciate, wont come to you but things that you dont appreciate, they always appear!! it’s like sometimes i still miss or think of somebody, maybe they already dont have me in their minds… just like while people still miss me but i already forgotten their names… somemore he asked me whether i still remember him… asking whether i can receive his sms or not coz he doesnt have my aussie contacts, the only way he can contact me is through my digi line… he even asked me to reply him… should i? but i dont think that i am going to reply… coz, i dont see a point to do so! or should i reply ‘i remember you, gavin mar, what’s your last name ar? but i dont miss you…’ no right… just leave it lar, and pretending that i didnt receive…

sometimes i wonder… is it that one will always remember the things that he or she cant get and never bother to remember the things that he or she doesnt want or doesnt like…

tonight i am happie… i have my cousin staying with me… =) i am not lonely… yea yea yea!!

i am back!! no mood… another paper is certified! crazy and i am dead!! thinking… what can i work as if i quit studying huh? haiihzzz… open book is not good actually, you wont have enough time to flip over those pages and you wont even know where to start from… and books and notes are too many till you wont even have space to put your things and write properly… and the shittie part is… answers are not found in the book… haiiihhzzz… should i go to get a MC now, and apply for special consideration to resit the paper?

somemore i didnt sleep well last night… brain was functioning like a snail… and mommie told me that facing the computer for long hours can cause the brain to move slower, cannot concentrate well… and… alcohol can kill brain cells… wahlaoo… i think it’s time for me to die edi, since my brain is USELESS edi!!!!! what am i waiting for… see me if you still can see me… miss me if you cant see me anymore…

想哭　來試探自己麻痺了沒
全世界　好像只有我疲憊
無所謂　反正難過就敷衍
走一回　但願絕望和無奈遠走高飛

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我的世界將被摧毀　或許頹廢也是另一種美